Holding onto 2010

I need to create some closure for myself. I still have all these lingering thoughts. It's a new year, so I should start it off fresh right? That's what I keep telling myself but sometimes that's just not enough. I dislike putting on this act at times, I know I shouldn't but I also don't like being mopey. My resolution was to get to know new people, do new things, discover new places, reunite with lost or old friends. Basically I want to be more sociable. Yet, I just need some time right now, I've been trying to rush it out. It doesn't work that way for me I suppose. No matter how many people I hang out with, or how many texts I get saying to cheer up, I guess time is just something I can't rush. I do miss you, I want to talk to you again, these thoughts pop in my head before I go to bed, to leave you a message or something, but I figure that it might just complicate things even further. I don't want to add any more sorrow than what needs to be there. So I'll just keep you in my thoughts, and a place in my smile. I hope you're doing well.

In the past I've made resolutions about being fit. They're effective for about 2 weeks but then they disappear. This year I'm made a plan, a schedule, and a routine I'm going to stick to. So let's kick off this new year.