sickly

i sick D: *cough cough*

and 2 days before graduation. Can you believe it 2 days? that's crazy, ever since four years back it felt like forever for this day to arrive. Hopefully they'll pronounce my name right. So this week has been exams and such for the noobs and rehearsals for seniors. I think it payed off because i know how to walk now, although it was pointless to go over the whole process 3 times.

I'm kinda down in the dumps because in3 days, chau will be gone for a month. It's gonna be such a noob month. But i know we'll talk and be like she didnt move. My plan is to take a picture of everyday for her and to write her a letter everyday. That way we can keep in touch :]

I feel drowsy right now, i think i should nap again and drink more fluids. So until later, ill stop right here for now.

P.S. the noob starts driving today :P i hope she has fun

and i miss her a whole bunch.

wooooo

just a quick post. I have a few days left of rehearsal and i shall walk down those halls of graduation. I cant wait :D and i cant wait to go to dinner after grad with chau and my family :]]]] I think it'll be quite a fun day.

And i hopes chau did good on her permit test.

I really miss her.

El Futuro

I wonder what lies after this week. I mean it keeps striking harder and harder everyday. I'm going to be done with highschool. Isnt that crazy? I dont feel that old at all, and yet i have to jump into an adult world after this. But i'll always cherish the moments i've had these past 4 years. It's what made me you know? All the things that happened, all the drama, all the laughs, friendships, fights, experiences, are what molded us high schoolers for the future. Those are the moments i wont forget. I truly miss all my friends when we part ways, but until then lets make the best of what we have left of summer to hang out, because after that people are headed out of state.

I would like to take this chance to thank someone very special in my life, who even though in four years of high school has changed me most this year. I remember when i would look at life and scoff at the idea. I wouldnt appreciate what i've had or why i had it. It took someone special like chau to made me realize the wonderful things in life that we must cheerish and be grateful to have. I know that now and im glad to be graduating with that sense in mind. That life is the best thing if you make it.

I made a bunch of money for a class. I feel like i gots potential :P And ill also keep up trying to get a job and be persistent like a buzy bee. For now i just want to part with the note that even though times will change, i know that the kids in us wont.

Random Thought: I get to drives with my own car :D my parents agreed

I miss chauzy :] A WHOLE LOT

RAWR O SAUR

It's been a long while since my last post. It's basically the last week of school for me academic wise. It's weird because the school year soared. Chauzy made my days wonderful. I have a couple more exams to go, and then im out. But i'll be back for the piano finals. I wanna here my nub play her pieces :] This summer is going to be busy methinks.

I wonder what the future holds in store. You really never know, the only thing you can do is go forward with both hands ready to take any challenge. The future holds events that cant be explained, and perhaps thats a good thing? I mean you dont want everyday to be repetitive, everyday holds something new, no matter how little. It's best just to make the best of it.

As for me, after taking the piano final and being overwhelmed by anxiety, i had a full day of thinking, and then some more after a little dispute. I'm honestly tired of myself. I had enough of the way i was. I dont want to look back at the way i was a couple hours ago. I don't want to cradle the guilt of insecurities anymore. I trust Chau, i honestly do, and i need to trust myself, i need to trust in life. Life isnt always trying to push you down. I think i was just too stubborn to pick up my head. But it's up now, and believe me, it's staying up. Im listening to this song and it just displays so many images of happiness and hope in my mind. 99% of those images are the times i spend with chau, i look back at the year that went by and i cant help but smile of our adventure through 365 days. We have had good and bad days, exciting and boring days. But it doesnt matter what kind of day it was, as long i had the opportunity to spend it with chau. I am the luckiest person in the world. I feel that way. And im happy about it :] Thank you for everything Chauzy.

Life holds more for us chau, and we'll travel the fabric of time together :D hehe nerdy physics reference.

P.S. I love chau.

Random Thoughts: When i said i would stop playing piano, i was only fooling myself, i will learn more of it over the summer and become a pro :P.

Just a couple more days to grad.

1 year with my love!!

It's been a year since those days back in the field. 365 days have gone by quickly because our beating hearts are filled with joy. I remember those days by the bleachers, and the caterpillars, and you "pretending" to be scared of them, just to be comforted. I would be the ragtag soldier to the rescue and it felt great :P Those times still hover my head. Summer was a great one, best one i've had, so much in store and especially the county fair. I have dreams of that day, sort of like a little replay of a movie. It was just the sugar to life that i needed. As days went on we faced challenges, and enjoyed life at the same time. Together we strived through so much, and we'll continue striving , we'll continue living life happy. If anything, i want to promise that I'll go my best to make sure we strive together. Words honestly cant express how i feel about you. I just want to say I love you Chau. For all the moments together, for all the times we've shared, for all the times we will share. Here's to our one year my love.

I love you Chau. :]

In need of fund D:

oh man, why does it cost so much to get our rabbit altered :[ It's the best thing for him and yet i can't afford it..

I think I'll go back to saving my money again. But i will get the procedure done, i promise our rabbit that.

So today i turned in my english stuff and felt so accomplished, why? because i was one of the 3 in our class who had everything ready and complete on time :B

Also i finally watched the new episode of lie to me today, and its weird that people like that could exist in this world o.o

School is about to say bye bye ( high school that is) soon enough ill go to college and start a good future. Oh and i really like that new Soul car by ikea.

I hope my friend is okay, he's been through a lot and it worries me when he blogs about such dark thoughts.

Right now im watching some show on local tv and its about why people have affairs and cheat. It sads that people do that. It's such a low thing to do, despicable. What tv said was that people cheat because they want attention, emotionally and physically. If one person doesnt get enough comments or positive feedback , "new lust" from the hormone dopomine is what causes it. Sad.

Sometimes i wonder if this world needs to deal with such destruction caused upon it. I feel bad for what human beings are doing to destroy the world. It sucks, hopefully will change, like now.

Just a random blog because it's just some things that happen today and i cant wait for summer to be here. Oh and since chau wont be here, ill take use of my graduation gift from my brother and
hopefully have a new dog by then. I'll really miss her. And we'll find a way of course.

Im going to finish my last quarter strong :D

Random Thoughts: I try my best to be as helpful as i can be, i dont really ask for anything in return, but it doesnt hurt for people to try to be helpful. Some days in school i see people just look at others drop their books and walk on. People need to work on that.

talents in moderation

today i took the longest test i have taken in my entire life. like no joke it started from the time the morning bell rang until 10 minutes after school ended. Sheesh, im still brain drained from it :P So recently i now own a pretty awesome rabbit that i call Jester. He is a pretty friendly rabbit with lots of energy and playful. So it's been pretty nice the past days except without all the rain and such and speaking of nice, school is almost done, and ill be out of high school at last. Unfortunately summer will start off dull, because chau be going to vietnam :[. It's gonna be kinda hard in that month, i'll try to keep myself busy by looking for work/working/ working out/ and such, hopefully time will fly by fast enough so that it felt like she never left.

You know what gives me a fuzzy feeling? It's when you see someone or meet someone who deals with such hard challenges in life and their talents shine and the world sees them for who they are, just like some people from britains got talent :P but yes, that gives me a fuzzy feeling.

Random Thoughts: I think we all have talents, we just have to discover them.