My remedy

One way to describe you is, amazing, because that's what you truly are. I come to school feeling nauseous and dazed and achy, but when i saw you i felt as strong as a bull if only for the moment, but after 4 days of absence it was really really nice being able to hold you in my arms once more. Through the day you would meet me and give me little pick me ups, like cough drops, iced tea, and hugs :D Thank yous very much for the cough drops they did wonders for my throat :D, and for the ice which made my mouth more mellow and calm :P Thanks for being here for me when I'm this sick, and just because I'm sick it doesn't mean we can't have fun :P Playing in the ice/snow wasn't a complete success xD but it was a nice experience to have my first snow expedition with you. And i have to say your hospitality is really really nice, a nice warm bed, and a nice steamy plate of noodles :D really perked me up , and to top it off the awesome surprise :D it is quite a delicious cake, and you went to the time to bake me a cake :D I love you Chau, you don't know how lucky i am. This is one sick day i won't forget. :]

I miss chau

p.s. Quac fell on the snow today

p.p.s. I also rolled down a hill :P

Too Long D:

what can i say, it's terrible to be sick, but it's much worse going almost a week without seeing my love. Sheesh, i miss her so much, i can't wait to see her tomorrow, and she has a surprise for me ;D

Well this teacher workday weekend i think i caught the flu, but the thing was since i rarely get sick this one hit me like a ton of bricks. I would cough, my temperature would go over 100, i would try really hard to breath and i felt so dizzy. But with some rest and reassuring words my health is coming back to normal, hopefully ill be good as new tomorrow.

I applied for giants today, and you're right chau, i need to start taking more responsibility, so i promise i will. because i wanna be the man in this relationship :P

gosh, 4 days already without seeing her, it feels like forever. Everyday i just want to hop into transportation and visit. Hmm i wonder if buses run on icy days o.o

Today i fainted and i could feel someone hitting me or something, it was junior, he was trying to wake me, and brought me some water and juice, what a swell kid :D

Not really that long of a post, my hot flashes are coming back xD i feel like i r sweating inside,

Wells i really want to see chau, i miss her like crazy :D

cam cam camera

:D so today was cho tet and it was quite the busy day. I woke up around 7 ish and my mom wasnt home so i had to babysit till she came back. My first attempt at fried rice failed, because i left it there too long -_-, but oh wells other stuff, and i just realized now that i forgot the gloves there o.o
aww snap. Things didnt sell that fast except chau's flan, that was like the first thing to go, because it was so darn good.

There was a lot of stuff and most of it i had no idea what it was, i'm willing to try new food, it'll be a good experience :D

Let's see later on the day i went to go help at the health fair, and i felt rather down because of how out of place i felt. I felt like all these people had their plans set out for them and i was the only squandering my time, but with chau's motivational talk to me, i know the i cant make my own path, and it's not too late, and instead of envying the people who work hard, learn from them to make myself better :D

it was a fun festival overall, then we got home and finished up iron man and watched a bit of office, and i got to try that packaged meal after all :D

Im going to start video posting some thoughts, make them private for chau and i so far facebook and daily motion, but we'll get you tube to work soon, i think chau's got some pretty good ideas, i liek this one :D

I miss chauzyyy

Change? yes? :D

Hellos, today was an interestingly interesting day. First because the sounds of my alarms are like squeaks to my ears now. I cant seem to wake up to them, i think i got used to the sound. I ran my butt off to school and got there on time, thankfully :P. I wanted to visit chau during class, i kept waving and stuff but she's a hard worker, so she was focused on class, then later on a administrator came up so i had to go back to class.

But that's okay, because i saw her later on the day.

Today was a funny day, because idk it feels like some of my past friends are changing, in a good way at the least. Some of my friends like tom and such are becoming closer, and idk it gives a good feeling, because change is possible to people after all, speaking of which that's obamas view. Change for the better.

Practice was fun today after school, the girls part is going swell, i was a girl today, and i think i did a good job. Tomorrow is co-ed time, and the weekend is cho tet. So i need to practice my cooking for that.

I think that new beginnings can happen this year, to renew a lost path and find the right way.

I miss Chausturr :D

MLKJD

today is Martin Luther king junior's day. It's remarkable what that man went to so us people have the opportunity that everyone should have.

I hope sometime in my life i can do something remarkable like that.

Today i stayed home for a bit because people were out, and then i packed my things and headed over to chau's because i haven't seen her for days and it felt like forevers and it was really good seeing her again. We watched part of iron man and we'll finish that up later. But it's a good movie :D

Well, Chau is really cute when she naps :P

Another short post, O: i really need more stuff to write about.

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Hmm, it's late right now, 1:14 and ticking just changed to 1:15, it's weird but i look at some stuff and remember some things from the past, and yeah people have really changed. I remember during lunch friday elizabeth brought her scrapbook, about us, about the freshman group, about those times that once were. Most of us have grown up and changed a lot, and others still have the hint of childish accent. In those pictures there were pictures of the sleepover, and how the niche of friends would have fun celebrating for no particular reason. We move on a year or two in the future and we find one of them in distress and even ruining their future, that person needs to stop being a stranger and get their life straight. My other friends have also moved on, some to better things which im proud of, others still wanting to party and such, but just worse. It worries me how thoughtless a human being can be. I mean i know we are al capable of making choices so why do many insist in making the wrong ones. I shudder at the thought of my closest and dearest person in my life ever making that kind of stupid choice. I know we're teenagers, the age of partying, the age of experimenting, the age of just having fun. I'm not blind, i now see the life outside of these walls, im not stupid to the fact that people you once trusted can stab you in the back at any moment, that's just life i suppose. I know that some teenagers find partying as a was of "escaping" for what ever reason. I'm not blind to the emotions of others, i know when people try to fit in for the popularity, i know when it's fake, i can see a group of people and point out the one laughing even though they didnt get the joke, why? because the feel the need to be part of something. Teenagers are well, teenagers, even though some of us have already aged 18, we still act like stupid kids, not any personal attack, but i mean it's eventually time to mature, and get ready for the future. We are adults after all, those reckless and carefree thoughts stop at the last day of age 17. If teenagers are all about partying and such, more caution should be taken, i hear many stories of kids like that who wake up regretting why they did the other night.

I don't know, i guess i still have that hint of carefree young days, but i know what's right and what's wrong, and i guess what makes my thoughts different is that i look at how it might affect me years later. I bet, some of my friends see me as boring, but i have my motives. I have my plans for the future in the making. They don't involve drinking, drugs, carelessness, self attacks, abandoning my family, or my loved one. Honestly, i dont care if im in a group or not, i know who my true friends are, i know the ones that will stick by me through thick and thin, and i know the ones who are friends just for the moment to gain attention and leave the next day, i guess you can say i've matured. But in conclusion i know what friends influence me the right way.

Yeah i look at blogs, i look at some peoples blogs, and they have no idea i do xD i find reading them interesting, it's like a different story, a different book. Each has a different idea, and a different style of writing. I suppose one day this one shall be exposed to the caring public, if they do even care. Some time in the future i plan to publish this blog just for me.

So far these are just some of the things floating around in my mind. There's plenty more, but yeah this is just a small jest of it.

I've been looking at pictures, reading stories, listening to music, watching shows, movies, seeing dances, and all of it inspires me. I want to do more with my life, its a 20 day late start but, from this day on i'll definitely do more and achieve more, and it'll only be the beginning, it's time to start making something of myself and time. It's time for change.

Yes we can.




Tommorow i'm helping my mom out, and chau is helping her mom out, and president obama is official

I miss chausturr :D

Sundayss

sunday funday, not really. Well i didnt do much today buts thats okays, i cleaned and spent some time with my family. Today i hanged out with junior and rimer for a bit then rimer went to work and i was just hanging around my house for a bit, then i went to go job hunting, bu tthe place was closed for now, so i came back home feeling sleepy. Had a bite to eat and talked to chau :D

I took a nap, and it was quite the nice one.

2 days of not seeing her feels like forever, good thing i can see tommorow or i would go crazy :P

Short post, but my mind is pretty blank at the moment

I miss chauzy

TOdays

A weekend with out you, it's gonna feel like forevers. Today i awoke kinda tired and like 11 ish, i had a weird dream today. I was in my house with a tiger pajama outfit, and i was thinking about shaving, so i was. But the problem that kept happening was that my facial hair just kept growing no matter how many times i shaved. It's a weird dream because i had this one before. I know in real life i dont grow any facial hair if any haha, but yeah kinda creepy dream. I quickly whipped up some breakfast and everyone was out for the day, i guess they went grocery shopping. Well my day was supposedly supposed to be a practice day, but as i got off the bus i find out that they're somewhere else, and wont practice till way later, so i go home and it was freeeeeeeezing today. I got home and made some tea and noodles. It was an okay ceremony to ome back to. Like an hour or so later my parents got home with more food and stuff. I went to my basement to have my own practice session. I want to get back into being stronger, and more skilled. So i think ill devote at least 30 minutes a day on practicing, that way eventually i'll get better. Later on the day i hanged out with junior and played video games like the nerds we are.

Well, the job search is going slowly, it feels like my brother hasn't been home since like Thursday, and when he does come home it's like to get money from his room and thats at like 2 am or around there. I saw this new store opening at the plaza and i think i might check that out tomorrow and see what they offer and such. I might just work there for money at the moment and get something until the other places reply.

Oh speaking of tomorrow , imma organize my room differently, to for a rearrangement and it's gonna make my room look cool. More space, more comfortably, and a cooler look. I downloaded an ikea bedroom maker, and ill try that out soon.

Let's see, 2 days of school and those will be fun :]

Hmm what's new in my life. Lets see, things are going amazing with chau and I, im renewing some friendships with old friends, i feel like im doing more for my community. I think that this year will require work and more work but it'll definitely be worth it.

I miss chau a lot, and i can't wait to see her again.

and if you are reading this, then i shall give you a e-hug. *hug* (directed to chauzy)

4 days of weekend :P

i came to school today without taking a shower, that's a first. haha,i suppose it wasnt as bad as it couldve been, i washed my chest and face real quickly. But after that i took a brain test thinger majig. i got 2:23 with 100 questions right. Chau got 2:04 or something noobish like that, sheesh :P

A four day weeked awaits it shall be quite enjoyable i hope, but i cant see chau on sat or sun :[ but hopefully i can on monday, maybe tuesday if it's clear.

I ate lunch at home, it was fish and rice and juice :D

Took some relaxing time and a nap.

A website that always makes me chuckle is failblog.org so much funny stuff :P

Not a long post, but definately a good day. More to come

- jim

p.s. I miss chau.

a penny's worth

well, this is going to be another brick wall in my life. All these things dealing with money, i wish my job would just call and accept me, that way it would be a bit easier. Im going to have to start saving up, like actually commit to it. No more buying sandwiches, or candy, or snacks. I will pack my own lunch and i wont waste on stuff i don't need. My goal is to save at least 300 dollars, and seeing as the rate my allowance goes 15 weeks. So if i start now, i think ill have enough for behind the wheel. There's so much i want to do, but it all deals around money, unfortunately, but there are fun things that don't require money and those should suffice for good times to come. For example a Frisbee game should be enjoyable.

What i have to do is ask about this whole driving process to my father and see what he says, and i need to ask my brother about getting a job or at least get an email/call back from my applications.

I don't know, this will be tough but in the end it'll be worth it.

I saw some youtube vids today, and some were about the conflict of race in this country. And frankly, it's just plain out pathetic. The uneducated vs the non citizens, what do they get out of it? that kind of fighting seriously needs to stop. This society needs to learn that one is unable to survive without the other.

So other than all that, i found a website that makes me chuckle. http://failblog.org

it sounds out of reach, but if there's a will there's a way, and I'll find a way to complete all this.

I want to do this, so i can see you over the summer and weeks, months, years to follow, and i need to make this happen this you, for you.

Project

school was interestingly nice today. I like getting random kisses after class, it's quite a motivation booster.

Well today i learned that i have been a semester project to do, this one inquires a movie product which i cant wait for. I gets to shoot a documentary :D Chau, can you help plox, i need some of your creative ideas :D

So after school, i went to go get banh mi again while chau finished her test, those sandwiches be good. And then we went home, close call :P

We gots home and then i quickly got onto the bus and got home.

Not much happened, but at the same time a bunch happened :P

Yups,

I miss chau.

-jim

DANCE

dance dance, :D yea that's what today is about. Well midterms came back and one i took O: haha oh wells ill do twice as better. But overall classes were pretty lax today :D SO after school we had a meeting and talked about future club stuffs and projects. What i have to do is make fried rice and chau makes her famous flan :D we is gonna be best sellers :D They practiced on their part which is looking pretty good and im mixing some music and it's also coming out pretty well. I believe that this year heritage night shall be a very enjoyable one :D. Oh and btw i think we should do those dance moves you made.

Ban Mi or however you spells it was mmmmm tasty, ill buy us the combination nexttime :D

That was an enjoyable nap, i would say "it was even like a vacation" :P but enjoyable. It's cozy and warm and soft. The food was delicious as well. :D

So i think that we will rock the show :D

p.s. my hope catcher does catch hope

p.p.s i miss you a lots chau

- jim

addiction.

yes i am an addict unfortunately, my addiction is cleaning. I can't stop doing it i see something un organized my incentive is to get there and make it organized. I don't know why but i just feel the need to clean up.

For the past days chauzy has been sick and i wanted to take of her. I think it was because of my lunch and the cold weather either case, i'll do all i can to make sure she feels better and i'll stay as long as i can till she is all warm and cozy. I'll sneak around a populous area just to get you lunch, i'll stay awake when you sleep just to make sure your okay. When you had a headache it really worried me, i didnt know what to do, so i was just thinking happy thoughts for the both of us hoping that somehow i know its not realistic but would transfer into you r mind and that way it wouldnt feel as bad. Your hurting belly caused me to worry as well so i gave it a soft rub, i'm just glad you eventually got better. You know ill always be here for you, through the bad and good times. I promise.

Well todays adventure was off to a late start, once again going out really early didnt work so i went as fast i could and thankfully made it there on time. All that physical fitness training really helped me, the old me would run and then get tired and desire cake. But the new me only want asian bistro for food, speaking of which i ate today, i felt proud that i made my own bowl today, i feel accomplished. I dropped off chau to the mall the bus rides were quite relaxing and fun she was going to have a fun day shopping with april, which i here makes shopping an Olympic sport :P

My bus ride home or rather to pan am was an interesting one, i met up with this guy name Roger at a bus stop, this guy seemed pretty normal but the thing was the he was once a drug addict, we were talking about school at first he told me he was in his 3rd year of college already. In his high school years he did what most teenagers do, drink and do drugs, but it consumed him and before he could realize what he was doing he was hooked. He spen all his allowance on drugs and alcohol and soon enough he ended up in juvie for a bit. He told me how tough it was for him to recover and the pain he gave his family. It was a pretty sad story, and it really got to me. I wish the people i know with this kinda problem one day meet him and learn about what the kind of life can do to you.

But on another note, today i applied for safeway and michaels, hopefully i'll get a job so i can buy my stuffs.

It's too bad i couldnt come over :[ i really wanted to, but you get to come over to mi casa :D

I can't wait for that, wells i got some more cleaning to do so i shall be back tommorow.

P.s. I miss you Chau :D

hop hop

todays was quite an adventure, first time i hopped out my window and the landing wasn't so great but i made it and luckily i made it to the bus before it came, so to the knowledge of my family i was in my room the whole day xD But it's okay because they didn't notice :P It was a fun day. I feel like im coming back from work when i visit, because its like my house har har. a day with my love with just perfect before school starts again once more. Im gonna miss the days just like summer, but soon enough we'll have those again. I think im ready for school to start again, and our study session was quite enjoyable, i want to have more homework like that :P we are nerds for reals.


Brownies, mmmmmm, yummy i want more, and the best part is thats its all mine :D

I feel good :D I'm so lucky to have someone who cares for me because of who i am :D

Oh and yeah i found like 100 cups of strawberry cheesecake parfaits/ frozen yogurts, gonna be a goood breakfast :P

hello new year :D

my internets is about to die :[ i shall continue this manana :D Okays i r back, let's see. 2008, what a year. A lot happened. The beginning was not as nice as i had hoped for, drama and all that. But hey that's life. So after all that drama i sort of let myself fall into a spiraling depression, but i r saved by my super hero. From the skies, across the seas, and a bus drive away :P Chauzy came into my life. She was there when i was in a mess, and that's when i knew. I mean it's not everyday that you meet someone who takes their day just to hear yours and laugh with you, cry with you, sing with you, run with you, and enjoy life with you. May was an unforgettable month, i guess the C&J story began there :P The fair, the visits, the bus rides, the trips to nowhere, the ponds, streams, fields, parties, get togethers, movies, a lot happened with you, and all of it even unexpected was just right for me. An unforgettable summer, that's what it is. Truly Unforgettable, and under those flashing fireworks that day, it came so clear to me, this feeling, i just knew it :]. Like i said, there were surprises like, the moves, which thankfully aren't happening for awhiles :P But by then i shall have a car and a job :D What really makes me happy, is that your values are so moral. You believe that drinking and drugs are distasteful just as i do. Because we clearly see that life is more of an experience with out them. We see that we dont need a way out from what people call a "cruel" world. What cruel world is that? we live in the richest country in the world, and yet people complain, this is the land of endless opportunities and if people think they don't have a choice, there is always a choice. I see the grief of those people in third world countries, starving, homeless, with out clothes, or money. Those are people who deserve to call this a cruel world, and yet they don't look for drugs or alcohol, not just because they cant obtain it, also because they know that they have to keep their valor for themselves and for their families. I'm setting an influence for my little brother, that's is why i made an oath to myself to not contaminate my body with alcohol or drugs. And chauzy i'm so proud that you have the independence to stand firm with your righteous choices. And i'm also proud to all those who refuse to do drugs and alcohol and those who are trying their hardest to stop.

This year, has opened my eyes to what life is really like. And i gotta say, it can be bad but really good as well, it's how you see life. I see it half full :P

Formal parties, presents, anniversary, new years, halloweeen :] we experienced together, and to be honest all the stuff my family tells me about the future, idc, because it's my life and i have the choice, and i know i'll make the right ones, i'll know when i'm ready to commit, and i'll put the life i have into it.

This year shall brings many more surprises, hehe most likely.

Ohh some new years resolutions
-=- get better grades
-=-Be more fit
-=- Break dance more
-=- Mend drifting friendships
-=- Expose this blog one day
-=- Be with Chauzy
-=- Work out more
-=- get crazy power moves
-=- get smarter
-=- watch more movies
-=- get better at lacrosse
-=-becomes a better chef

I feel like looking back at all my entries :D

Happy New years and it'll be a good one

P.S. I miss Chau

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