Thanksgiving

well, it's thanksgiving :D the day of giving and receiving, and sharing and receiving the gifts that we shared and received and shared.

Well today, i woke and got the thanksgiving feast ready with my mother. I got to cook, and it was amusing. I think cooking is one of my hobbies. Which is good i suppose. The feast consisted of turkey, mashed potatoes, green beans, bacon bits, baked potatoes, sweet potatoe, cranberry, beets and croissants. Overall the feast was yummy and the desert was a cake from a store which was okay, but i would rather have chau's baked treats.

I have quite a bit to be thankful for.

My health: theres been alot of things going around my life, people who drink, do drugs and such and im glad that im strong enough to resist such things. Im also thankful that my health is getting better, my physical fitness is also improving.

My education: Ive been studying harder, and doing better in school, also i've been called a good writer:D

My family: they can be tough at times, but they are also some of the best people in my life. They brought me up and i respeect them. They can be quite funny at times too.

My friends: Thanks to them i've been growing up, and they are there when i want someone to talk to or hang out with. They're funny, caring and smart as well. Some of my friends help me be more confident. They can be hard at times, but there some of the coolest people i know.

Dearest Chau :] - I am so thankful that you walked in my life. Well in a way you did last year, but we were just friends, and this year we're so much more. Im so thankful that you came into my life and saved me from a really tough moment. And through out our summer days, we've had such woderful days and i remember that day where i told you i love you. Those really nice moments, you're there for me, you support me, you make me feel important, you bake for me, you smile for me, you help me when im down, you put a bigger smile in my face, your gifts always rock, and i enjoy hanging out with you after school. You have no idea how much you mean to me.

Edit* thanksgiving is funn

the day before thanksgiving

wells, today was a half day. The funny thing was that it felt longer than a regular day, i guess that's because of the fact that we expect it to be short. Classes were short and plentiful, and i carried alot of mugs :3 In physical fitness, we played against the p.e. classes. We owned, as expected :O. After that we had the awaited lunch at peter pan[pen,pin,pim,ping?] i forget. But the food was good, very plentiful and delicious. I don't know why but outdoor food gets me full so quickly, and i lose food eating contests with chau :O but when it comes to home cooked foods, i rock. :P One of my friends, is having problems, i think ill have a talk with him. So this is how it is. He confessed to his crush, crush said only friends. But i don't think he accepted that fact yet, therefor he is trying to mature himself either to impress or seem more mature. But honestly, that itself is immature, you mature by experience and time, some take longer than others, you shouldn't force it. You try to hard and you'll lose your roots. That's something you can't lose, what makes you, you. But honestly, if that girl can't accept you for who you are, then you cant force yourself to be changed that drastically. Not to sound boastful, or gloating, but you have no idea how happy and lucky i am to have that kind of person in my life. She accepts me for who i am, in both my mature and immature moments. I love that about her,she is like my pocket full of hope. So besides that, lunch was good, ride to micro center was awkward xD and the walk around Micheals was nice. My belly was hurting a bit, i think i mixed foods in a weird order o.o but yeah i feel better. Got home, relaxed a bit, watched a bit of office, then made my way off the bus. I miss her so much already, SO MUCH. I got home and took a nap in the family room, but before that i went for a cookie, which there was only 4 left counting the one i took. They're crunchy sweet and yummy with milk. So i dozed off and went to sleeps, got back up talked a bit, then went to go eat dinner.

hmm

that talk about death, i don't know i guess just thinking about it just gets to me. I cant bare the thought of you dying. That would be the most horrible thing in my life. It would be like those tragic stories, where one love dies and the other loses all and also dies. Coming to a school where i don't see you in the halls, where I'm unable to play piano songs for, where i cant make lunches for, a day after school where i walk home alone. not riding the bus anymore. Seeing things that remind me of you that would crush me little by little. You impacted my life so much, i love you chau. All the things we've experienced, lived, smiled, laughed is a lifetime on its own, and it keeps living. I love you, so much.

On A HAPPIER NOTE, only a few more hours till thanksgiving. Can't wait for that turkey :3

Till tomorrow

Jim

the power of words

words. What would the world be without them. They drive our present, future, past and every other moment. Words don't even have to be spoken. They can be read, interpreted, seen, heard. Words, simple words, extravagant words. A word such as thank you can change a persons day. And when i read such inspirational words in a certain someones blog, i am filled with anticipation of what life has to offer. What an amazing piece of writing. The truth behind it, the meaning of it, the understanding of it. Just reading those words kept a smile rising in my face. The way you feel about music, the way you feel about sounds meaning, the effort put forth, and how it connects us to our past, all amazing. I too remember that glorious spring day, a day that I'll remember always. The only thing i wanted to do, was to reach out and grasp your hand and hold it. I had a slight feeling you planned it, secrets out, i kinda knew, and I'm glad that you wanted to, because it gave me more confidence and hinted me closer to reaching out. I am so glad i did. With all our adventures, smiles, nights crying, days laughing, afternoons together, school time joking, our togetherness has been wonderful. I truly cherish what we have, the way you understand me, the way we get each other, how we can be ourselves and as silly as we want. Because that's what we want, to be together.

Even if i have to walk a thousand miles, that would be a nothing. I know i can do it all for you.
Revisiting these songs brings back memories. Memories of good times and sad times, but all around music is able to bring back those memories in the back of my head. The Cd's you gave me each song is essential, each has its meaning, and each makes me think of times we had together.

There's more music for us to hear :] a lot more.

sick day number 1

wells
i got sick xD, i think its the first time in a loooooong while. I should drink more orange juice. I think it started in the morning, i felt so weak, and my nose was runny. I got to school with some shivers. But it's okay, i saw chauzy and my sinuses cleared and my strength came back. I went the day with class after class, and then after school, i felt sick again, but i wanted to spend time with chauzy, so i did. Uhh that lunch bag smelled bad D:, good thing we tossed it to the trash pile. Chau is so sweet and supportive :] how'd i get so lucky. I got to rest on a cozy bed, watch one of my favorite shows, drink hot chocolate, and have some noodles, and if that wasn't nice enough. I got to take a nap with some music :] Thank you so much for taking care of me, i feel better already :D. Nice scarf btw :3
I love you Chau :]

At the mall

wells today i woke to a fun run to the bus stop. I wanted to make it by 9:34 but i miss that and i

had to wait more, but that's okay because not only did i have a good day ahead of me, but i also

had the sweet aroma of hot chocolate waiting. The liquid molecules mixed with sugary cocoa

waiting to be sipped up by yours truly. I looked forward to visit chauzy because i really wanted

to see her. The bus came and in a matter of minutes i was already at her road. I made my way

quickly, jogging and then gradually running to her house. The smile that could brighten up my

coldest days, with the addition of hot chocolate was a welcoming invitation. Ring ring went the

phone and the door creaked open. I entered to a home where everyone was out. I looked around

for a bit. It's a cozy place. Its not like a place to get lost and it feels homely. Wii!!! haha funny how

it came out of nowhere, wii fit, wow , do you have to be like an Olympic athlete to succeed in

that? seriously it like wants you to be able to do perfect form push ups and find the balance of

your body in mere seconds. :P well either way it was a fun activity. I like the step dance thingy.

at first i started off horrible but i got the catch. Chau owns at it. the hula hoop thing i fail at xD

but chau has a really good score. I was skeptical of a game being able to make you fit, but i guess

i was wrong. its harder then it looks...that's what she said. uhh...<[o.o]z

So yeah we made our way to the bus stop to go to the malls :D I couldn't wait, a fun day at the

mall, haven't had one in a while. Not only that i was going to get my very first pair of converses

:DDDDDDD it was a moment in my life that i will not forget. We got to the mall went to foot

locker and got my shoe size. I opened the box, i was so excited to wear them i didn't care where i

put them on, i was just so excited to wear them. One after the other, i stood up and felt like an

accomplished man, i walked around and saw my shoes reflections everywhere, i couldnt stop

looking at them, they are such awesome shoes! imma wear them with everything. So after that

we got some popeyes, chicken and biscuits. Tasty tasty, but for some reason i was craving

lemonade :P so we looked around and found a little ice cream shop, i was kinda of i guess cheap, i

don't like wasting so much money for something small. But, you know its worth the money at

times. I think that frozen yogurt was worth the money for sure. You're right chauzy, save

money, but also learn to spend it. :] You help me find the answer :] We went looking around and

buying then we got some old fashion lemonade, which was goooood. Our mall adventures were

fun, really fun :] interesting side note * through out the day, felt like a married couple, and i like

it hehe i cant wait for the future. So i walked with pride in my new shoes, and went home.

Watched some office and relaxed a bit. Cleaned up, organized, which i enjoy doing for some

reason. I like telling you my thoughts more, i mean i think that it would be awkward for you to

get into my mind, but you know how to handle it and make me feel bettter, find the answer, and

give me better understanding, i thank you or that chau. I am going to take more charge in my

life, I'm going to be more open, more sincere, and once again thank you for the sweet shoes :D.

Made my way to the bus, forgot my keys, went back and got hot chocolate :] which put a smile in

each sip i made. It was a nice wait with the hot chocolate. The bus came and no one was there, so

it was my personal ride. Today was a good day, it really was :]



I love you.

the future is ours :]

wandering.

god, what is wrong with me. I m getting so forgetful. its starting to bug me. I always forgot

something, it could be small or big but i forgot it, and then it comes back and hits me like a rock.

School sucked. I hated school today. i honestly felt like i could not make it through the day. It

was so hard to stay focused and calm. all i did was worry, and regret. Can't believe i forgot the

CD. Wow how stupid can i be. Maybe its just the way i am.. but i don't want it to be. I don't want

to have such a forgetful lifestyle. i need to get my things in order. I have to keep my thoughts in

line. somehow.I'm looking forward to tomorrow and I'm glad i got to see you today. It was like

the perfect medicine to my fainting force. A day at fairoaks sounds fun.

I need to stop being so freaking forgetful.

B-Ball Day

Ooh i haven't posted in a hawhile. A hwhile :P wells lets see what has happened so far. I am

obsessed with the office, it's such a funny show. Yeah.. :D So yesterday after me and chauzy

finished volunteering which gave us a good feeling, knowing that we are helping people we went

to subways. I'm really proud and happy that chau like volunteering, I'm quite a really really lucky

guy :D We had a roast beef sub and then went to giants to get some cheesecake icecream. So i

left, and chauzy waited for her ride. I got home and just layed in bed for a while. I picked up my

phone and started calling chau. 1 missed call, okay, 2 missed calls, okay she's sleeping, 3 missed

calls, still sleeping :p, 4 missed calls, really heavy sleep haha, 5 missed calls, uh..., 6 missed calls, i

wonder where she is, 7 missed calls, is she okay?, 8 missed calls, is she still at giant?, 9 missed

calls, i hope she's okay,10 missed calls, I'm going back to check. Phone down and i get ready to go

out, my dad wont let me. I sigh in disbelief i was so worried. I went crazy i tried to calm my

nervousness by watching office. i only got through one episode when i just couldn't stand it. It

was almost 10:30. I was worried to death. 11 o clock. I layed in my bed praying for a call back.

Chau, i really don't know what i would do with out you. I love you. I really glad you're okay :]

So today was the anticipated basketball game. First i had to make sure we could get in so during

thanksgiving lunch, i went to see if we could get extra tickets. Unfortunately we couldn't :\ So i

used my lunch money to buy some tickets so we could see the game :] Haha well it turned out

Paul had the tickets o.o oh wells We went to the game it was rather exciting, teachers versus

students the students lost badly i figure. I want to watch more games with chauzy, its fun :D.

After that we caught the bus home, and went to the park for a bit. She told me about her house

in Vietnam, it sounds really nice. Maybe one day we'll go back together :]

Chauzy, i am so glad that i have you in my life. I really miss you.

Love,

Jimothy Quiroz

:DDDDD

Today was such a great day :D. At school piano was good, because i got to spend it with chau and i got a good score on my piano test after that i went to physics class, and i did a bunch of doodles :P which i showed chau. I drew this funny looking giraffe bucktooth horse o.o yeah so after that i went to lunch and had cheese stick and left some in the locker for chau. 5th and sixth were routine today, but it wasn't packed with work. school was fun and all, but the real adventure began after school. We went home and watched some office and had a vacation xD It felt like a while since we have. I guess we've been pretty busy the past few days. But today was really enjoyable. A nice nap to top it off :] You're so beautiful chau, you have no idea how much you are. And i reallly really really like the 6month video :D it brought smiles to my face. I want a copy just for me so i can hang on my wall forever :D I really liked the shoes you got me :] I've always wanted a pair of converses hehe its one inch bigger but that's okay, we'll go back and get it the right size. I feel so excited for tomorrow. I want to try the sushi so bad, i don't think I've had sushi in the longest time. And i am going to make something for tomorrow morning, to keep our bellies full :D You make me so happy chau, i want to thank you so much for being there for me, caring for me, supporting, you're the world to me chau :]

I R Missing U :D

a saturday

Hmmm, it's a saturday and i didnt do much. I really wanted to hang out but i guess time wasnt

on our side today. Oooh wells its okay. We got to hang out virtually :P, we are such nerds haha. I

miss you like crazy, crazier than crazy. I made lunch and dinner today, both came out really

good. No one was home till 7 ish. So the whole day iwas in my house and i was watching movies.

Some report cards came home, one that i am especially proud of :]. You're so smart and

responsible :] I R SO PROUD. You went to the mall, and you got me a present THAT I

REALLY WANT TO SEE. I miss you so much, it feels weird to go a day without seeing you.

You're the breath of air that i need to live. I cant wait to see you tommorow, i cant wait to see

your gift, i cant wait to see your smile, your face, hear your laughter, and i know you'll do good at

your interview. I believe in you chauzy :]

S6ix Months :D

Guess what?

Come on, guess.

guesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

6 months :DDDDDDDD

This is so amazing, i love you chau. These past six month have been full of adventures, bad and

really good. I remember before school ended, how we looked forward to school ending just so we

can inch our way to the field and have a relaxing day. I remember being so excited just to hear

about your day, and share my day. The first time our hands touch my heart jumped out of my

body. You have no idea how relieved i was that you accepted it. And later on you accepted my

kiss. I remember that throughout the summer we would have our other adventures. I do

remember the tough time somewhere in the middle, but I'm so glad that we stuck with it.

Because we are here, and it is better :] School started and to be honest i was afraid of change,

but you made it more comfortable for me. Its because of you that i grew, i grew my confidence,

bravery, and responsibility. You're such a big impact in my life. I mean i know we had our

amount of fights, and the fifth month was rough, but we got past that, we learned and talked, and

in turn we became a much stronger couple. And now its six months, six months of us, six

months of happiness, six months of such a great adventure, that i believe is never ending. You

tell me that most of the stuff we talk about is how much we miss and love each other, but that's

because i cant help it. I miss you every minute that im away from you, i love you every second,

every millisecond, every minute, every hour, every day , every week, every month, every year,

every decade, every century. I wish that we were older, than we wouldn't have to wait so long :P

I do, but at the same time our present is filled with many more adventures to happen, and i

really enjoy that. I really like that you support the things i do, it makes me feel good. I like the

fact that you care about the community, and i like the fact that you are above the influence, all

things that make me love you even more :]

Happy six months Chau :].

I reallllly enjoy your baking, its so delicious. But theres only three left that i should save. I wish

there was more, so good. I cant wait for your brownies, and for our day tomorrow. Hehe I dont

know why but for some reason everything is double spaced in think i pressed ctrl+ something.

i really miss you chauzy. Theres so much more ahead of us :]

We're there :]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAUZY :DDDDDD i know its 2 days past, but im really happy for you. You're 15 nows :3 We had fun on your birthday and that's what i wanted, a birthday that you could remember :] Im glad you liked the cake, my present, and the balloons :]

Chauzy, im so happy, really happy. It's amazing the journey we have gone through. All our ups and downs, our smiles and frowns. We had our tough moments, but because of those we grew stronger and we fought for what we really wanted. And what i want is a lifeime with you chauzy. I love you. You give me butterflies in my stomach, big butterflies :P

Just a couple more hours till our 6th months :]. This will be a milestone for me. My longest relationship and im so glad its with you. I know that it'll be infinitely with you, dont ask me how but i have this really certain feeling that ill fight for. With every last sweat bead, blood drop, muscle in my body, ill fight for us. No matter how rough times get, ill be there right behind you.

I really cant wait. Six months, it'll be amazing, just like you. What you told me today, about love being more than love, is what i feel too. It just keeps growing, my love, just keeps growing for you. I love you Chau.

Everlasting :D

Almost there :P

4 MORE HOURS :D 4 more hours till you grow one year older :D I can't wait :] Today was an interesting day. I can say that school was fine and all. I saw chauzy we had breakfast and she looked really nice in her black dress and boots, and ripped jeans :P. We went to classes and the day passed. So we went to my house to bake a cake haha, i know its not traditional but i thought it would be a rather enjoyable thing to do. So we got home, and got the stuff ready to make a cake. For a time it was good and all, but i guess i was too worried on making sure that the cake was supposed to come out perfect, that i sucked out all the fun of baking. It was my fault. It was supposed to be a fun time. I was so stupid. I didn't want us to prepare your birthday cake in a bad mood. I wanted us to be happy to make the cake. but yeah, that was a bump in our day. We got past it, and I'm glad. Vanilla cream can do anything :3 The cream was tasteless compared to your sweetness [corny line] We colorfied our cake and it turned out so good. My mom really liked how it tasted and so did junior. Here's a picture. I hope it tastes amazing :].

After we finished the cake we cleaned up.

It's funny because, it felt like such a married couple thing to do :] I enjoyed today.

So my parents talked to Chau, about how we are. My mom asked about the age and such. Im so glad she's okay with it. Chau won my parents over haha :]

I can't wait, you're birthday is so SOON :D

You're day will be filled with hugs and kisses by moi :]

Early Happy Birthday!

and

I miss you :]

moose and squirrel

So yesterday we volunteered at a sale around some buildings, i liked it. I felt so helpful. Chau cam and she looked very nice. So we set up the stuff and set prices, and we did have a bump that day. That bumped just made me see that it's rather impossible now to imagine life without her. I made a promise, a promise that if she ever got angry or annoyed, i would be right there behind her. I would follow her everywhere. Even if that annoyed her more, i would be there right behind her. No matter what, if she threw knives, i would be there. So we got ourselves a moose and a squirrel, rocky and Bullwinkle. Bullwinkle, the mooserer is Chau. A squirrel, rocky is jim :]. We make such a good team :3 after the volunteer thing ended we went home and relaxed.

Today was a good day :] this morning i thought i couldn't go, but i was really Happy when she said it was clear to go, so i made my way home . We had cereal and an office marathon :D. Naps and such. Sleeping, it's really clear that this is the girl i want to spend my life with. She is the one i want to buy that second pillow for :D. So after hours of relaxation and office i went home. I got more stuff for the birthday cake, i hope it comes out okay.

Icantwait. SO CLOSE. 2 more days till your birthday, on the 11th. And 5 more days till the 14th :DDDDDDDDDD. It's gonna be a great week.

About Me

Well, i have written alot in the past but i never really introduced myself. I would like to take this opportunity to introduce my self. My name is Jim, Jimothy, Jimsie, Jimbo, Slim Jim. I have had alot of nicknames in the past and they all remind me of a part of my life. I have 2 brothers. One is older and the is 10 years younger. At first i thought life would be easier with a younger brother. Someone i could just teach my stuff to, but i was wrong. Life is more about responsibility and action with another member of the family. But it's good in a way, because i have grown and become a better role model for him. I live with my mother and father, im not the most social person with them , but i tell them whats on my mind. I'm glad they are accepting the fact that i am dating someone not of Hispanic origin. In the past they would oppose it, but now, they are okay. Speaking of which, my girlfriend, chau, is the most amazing person to come across my life. She is that person, the puzzle piece that completes me, i know it sounds really corny, but that's what i feel.

I messed up in school in the past, and now I'm paying for it now, grades, test scores, quizzes, homework, it would all pile up on me, and before i knew her i would probably let it take over and bury me. But now, i have confidence, i know that if i put some effort i can get work done. That's the way i want to take school now, if i work for it, it can happen.

I am a senior, so after this year ends, i face the world. I don't know exactly what's out there, but i want to be prepared to tackle on the challenges.

My hobbies are breakdacing, piano, movies, guitar, movies, food, and organizing.

My favorite part of the day is having time to be with Chauzy.

I like to cook, and i believe that people enjoy my cooking, i also like to lay on the grass. Its really peaceful just laying on the grass.

In a nutshell, my life got better from the past. The past brought bad things, but that's the past, and i realize people are different, and people are themselves, and that life is worth living if you work for it.

I am really glad to be where i am, and I'm working for our future. That's something about me, i want our future to be swell :D

Day of candy haha. I woke to chauzy's voice today, it's really nice getting a call in the morning. It pumps me up to start my day :D. I took a shower and dashed out of my house. I got to school and saw chau in her really nice white shirt, and jeans. She looks so beautiful, hehe I'm so lucky. So we got some cereals for breakfast. And we made our way to start the school day. I brought candy so she would stay awake during class hehe. So yeah my teacher forgot to put a grade in so its not the grade i wanted, but it's okay because there is 2 weeks more in the NOVA quarter. So i can boost my grade more :D. After school we went to vsa. Haven't had a meeting in a while, they're better now. I'm able to help in clubs and be with chauzy :D I know i talk alot about chau, but that's only because she deserves to be mentioned. She made such a difference in my bleak life. I'm no longer fearful of what's to happen, im hopeful.

So we talked about hobbies and such. And I am managing my time more. I can do this. I can fit the things i want and need into my day. I believe i can, you believe i can , and that's what gives me more comfort. The fact that you support my actions and motives drives me to do better. You are the support i can always look for chau. So we got some Bobba teas haha, it's such a tasty drink, i remember getting a bag from chauzy, it was delicious. I gots to get some more. We made our way to the bus since my father came home early, i was glad to hear that, cause then i could take chau home. The bus ride was nice, it wasn't as bumpy as most, it made me sleepy and it was relaxing in a way.

We got home, and i went to the bus stop once more. She forgot her keys, but found them again haha. That was cute :p

We're so close chauzy, your birthday our sixth months, it's all making me excited :D Can't wait to volunteer, it feels good to help. and and i will look for work this winter :D

I miss you.

:DDDDDD

Day back from the resting

The day started out nice, i noticed that it was Wednesday, which meant only 2 more days of school. I glad Obama won, it's my future that is affected by this election and i hope he does his job well. School was school today, piano, which i did poorly on, but now I'm going to try harder and believe in myself. Physics, had a sub and no work, so i took the time to relax. Government, watched the debates and took some notes. Spanish, wrote long essays.

So today, i had to talk to some people and make arrangements, and Renee is coming to visit tomorrow. It's been forever seen we've seen her. So anyways Chau had to support one of her friends, and i was all up for it. I'm really glad that my girlfriend helps her friends, that she cures their social sickness. But i guess i overreacted and got angry. I took time way too deep into the issue. I did one of the most stupidest things in my life. I got angry. I got angry and my thoughts went racing, my stupid emotions went loose and i had no idea what i was saying. I left, and i felt like crap after that. I went back to check if she was there, i ran around cvs, 7-11, safeway, until she called and told me she was at the park. My heart just couldn't stop beating so fast. What i did was unforgivable, there was no excuse for my stupid acts. So i went to talk to her. She made really good points, about why i was wrong and what i do to our relationship. I mean it hurt, it felt life a knife just hit my chest. I was speechless, it's really hard to say something when you know you are wrong. But I had to tell my honest feelings, about why these thoughts always raced to my head when she hangs out with guy friends. It's my foolish past, that stupid girl, my stupid self for falling so hard, for trusting someone who did something like that to me. It hurt a lot, and infused itself in my mind. I hate that feeling, when i try to forget about it but it just haunts me. But like Chau said, i have to move on and accept the fact that it happened and live. Venting really does feel good, i like getting my thoughts about what i don't like or what i cant handle out of my mind and into someones ears. I'm also buying or trading my stupid cellphone, it never receives calls or sends them. I might get Verizon soons, so its good. You know, at those moments when i walked off, in my frustration, i felt blind. I felt this huge chunk of my life just disappear, i realized that i was lost without her. I even forgot the way home , i just couldn't bare the thought of it ending. It's amazing of how one meeting at school changed the rest of my life. I realize that the world can be evil and there are people who back stab, betray, and lie. but at the same time, the world has a select few of people you can just hand your life over to, someone you can truly trust, someone you can really put your faith in, someone who can make all evils disappear. And i am thankful to everything on earth that i have someone with me like that. Chau, you made me realize that even if my past is evil, betrayed, hurtful, psychotic, and plain out wrong, its what i survived thru and what i do with myself. And i intend to spread that same faith you gave me to the public. Volunteering is a good way to start. You open up so many good doors for me chauzy :]. Almost your birthday :D, i cant wait, its gonna be real funs :] and our sixth months will also be a blast :D.

it's amazing, it really is, how long we've lasted, all our shared experiences, times growing, things we taught each other, and all the love we share. I love you. You make me believe that there is a good portion of angelic actions in this world.

btw... i made ya lunch and i think we should watch more movies. :D

[IMUALUMEOS] - Jim

A scent pouch fresh start :D

I have a feeling the this month will rock my socks off. I really like November, and now i like it even more. It has good temperature, time that will trick you into thinking it's later than it really is, and a birthday of chauzy. This month is one I've been waiting for a while.

Subconsciously i think the 5 months was really tough on me, it brought back some past things in my head. Bad things that happened in my past, but now i don't care. I honestly don't, I'm tired of looking back at the past and feeling bad for myself. My past made my future and that's what it does. I may have had a plain, tough, scary childhood, but i survived and by surviving i grew. 6 months will make me so happy, it will make me more happy than happy. I know that all the bad thoughts and such will from the past will vanish. We take what we learn from our past and make a better future from it. And chauzy, i know I'm making a better future. I feel more secure when I'm with you and i know our futures will be great.

So yesterday with had a movie marathon! fun way to start a teacher workday. We saw a horror and real life movie. The horror movie was about a werewolf, and in that movie the purest person was actually the villain. A reverend, a holy man was the killer. Makes you wonder that looks can be deceiving. But all in all it was a good movie, scary, weird, and funny at some points. I know it's mean but i like watching scary movies with chau, because even though it frightens her, i like it when she looks for comfort from me. I feel so courageous when she does.

After that movie, we saw a very depressing movie called requiem for a dream. This was probably one of the most touching films ive seen in a while. It was so related to life that it was scary. It's sad what people will do just to get a buzz off a drug. It's pathetic. There's nothing right about drugs in general. You see the film and you realize that the long term effects of the drugs you take for fun at the moment are horrible. I want to show this film to some people, who feel like taking drugs is fun, because honestly they are blind about what they are doing.

I don't get it really, there are so many ways to feel the same way. Happiness. You don't need alcohol or drug for it. For some people happiness comes from jogs, walks, bike rides, video games, food, or music. For me it's Chau. Chau is my happiness and i like it :D

Todays, we had a mini marathon it was one film, kind of a weird yeti movie. It was just freaky haha.

We walked to Safeway, it felt... so right. I don't know how to explain it. Me grabbing my keys, wallet, cell phone. You grabbing your keys and sweater, hat , and closing the door. It felt like such a married couple thing. To be honest, i cant wait till one day its for real like that. I liked that feeling. So we bought rotisserie chicken and rice,cheese,broccoli which i thought would taste weird, but i was wrong, it was delicious :D.

My parents like chau, haha especially my mom, i guess she likes that fact the chau likes the food alot. My brother said i was lucky, having a really beautiful girlfriend who also has such an amazing personality. My little brother has a crush on chau xD i think it's funny. He gets jealous when i'm with her haha. Oh btw how's the candy? :3 you're winning my family over, i knew you would :]

:DDDDDDD I cant wait, this month is going to be great. Your birthday, our sixth months, our visit to dc, more time to hang out. I can't wait for it all. It's going to be amazing :]

i miss yous

50th post :D

Sundays are filled with lazyness :P I sundays are sleepy days. Sundays are days where the only care is what to eat or what to do. My sunday today had church. In church we discussed religion dealing with politics. Im starting to worry for my religion, its seems to be fading away from the true cause . My beliefs are such things as respect, unity, karma, love, and freedom i want to learn more about that. We went to best buy after church, my parents want a new camera for my mothers trip to Bolivia, so i helped them decide. So we ordered pizza on the way home and it was delicious, bad my family ate it all haha, we are such pigs. So later on they went out and i was home alone, so i made dinner for myself. A little bump today, i jumped to conclusions, i apologize for that. There is barely anyone in maple, well there is, but not in places we need. hehe im a nerd. So we played a bit of rune scape and it was surprisingly fun. I want to play again. plox.

I really miss you, one day without seeing you feels forever, i cant wait to see you again :]

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Today is Saturday :D, the long week went by. A week a happiness, sadness, discovery, and triumph. I read her blog, and it was the best piece of writing that i have read in these past days, i felt it too. I felt that really strong happy connection when we went trick or treating. And you don't know how happy i am that you want to be in this relationship with me :]. Today was a day filled with adventure. Yesterday we watched part of Indiana Jones 2 , and today we finished it up in the upgraded teevee :D. Those movies rock my socks. We were watching Bee movie, first. It's a clever movie haha, so we like Indiana Jones, then it was funny how fast i can react in a moment, i hid and bumped my head haha. But I'm faster than a scared cat. The food was really tasty, the rice the meat and the soup it was all tasty. We watched the first one which was scarier. I like movie days :D So i did the laundry as she took a nap. A long nap, but she's so cute when shes asleep. hehe. So yeah a fun day, i really enjoyed it :] Tomorrow you go shopping and ill clean and organize my stuff and get things ready for our mall adventure on Monday.

I really really miss you :D

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