Happy Halloween :D

It's Halloween, a day of frights, a day of chills, a day of spooks, a day of tricks. A day when candy inches its way towards you every morsel. So i woke up this morning and made my way to school, unfortunately i had another nosebleed in the morning, but this one wasn't as long. So i came to school, i acted very immature. I admit that, i admit my childish behavior and i regret acting that way. first period i had a quiz, wasn't too tough, 3rd period we read our ghost stories. My class really liked my story, and i participated loads and got lots of candy. I saved a special one just for chauzy. I've never seen a light blue lollipop. I met up with chauzy, and i told what today was to me, i wanted to spend our day together, i wanted to have a fun Halloween together, i wanted us to be happy on our first Halloween together :] I dropped her off to her drivers ed class and went to lunch. During my weight training class, i forgot my shirt, and my physical feature was exposed. The funny thing was i wasn't timid or embarrassed about my condition anymore, i cant help that i got injured when i was young and i cant change the fact that its there. So I learned to accept and embrace it. After school we rode the bus home to get some very delicious cupcakes (which are all gone by the way) They were so tasty, chauzy is such a talented baker, maybe she can open up a bakery, you know ill always buy my sweets from you. We caught the bus to go to my house, where she was going to go face to face with my parents. She met my mom, and i could tell my mom enjoyed her company. My mom wants me to find a respectful, nice, kind, sweet, fun, caring for the family, engaging, and supportive girlfriend. And i found her :] My mom left for work and we watched Indiana Jones, its a good movie huh? :D So my dad came home, and i could tell he was rather busy today, so he didn't talk much. But its okay, i talked to my dad about if after i dropped chauzy home, and he said that i am lucky to find a girl who is respectful and helpful to me. :D Its so nice being able to introduce chauzy to my parents. We can hang out more, and even in the house and it ll be alright, no suspicion just a nice day of hanging out :D. We went trick or treating with my little brother, it was such a nice walk, i felt so free, i felt so happy. I felt grown-up, i felt married :] I felt like the stars shined brighter this night than other nights. It was a really amazing walk. My little bro got tons of candy, haha i like the musketeer bars.

I really miss you chauzy. Alots.

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i miss & love you












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2usday :D

I'd walk a thousand miles, swim a hundred seas, jump a million gaps, sing a thousand songs, run a thousand cities, fly across the world, just to be with you.

Although i should pack some food and water :D

But yeah i know people think its very unlikely when someone says such things, but i honestly swear to my life would do all those things. There wouldnt be any doubt in my mind. Its all worth it.

Today up and for some reason my alarm was callin gout my name, or i think i was dreaming but yeah the clock would alarm in really different tones. The funny thing is my room is like a trap room in the morning theres things lying everywhere and i know that i can step and slip but its cool how i avoid it all even with my eyes clothes, i guess your mind remembers events better when you sleep on them.

I got to school today and it was cold as i stepped out the door. I like being early to chauzy's locker, because im there waiting and i have surprise hugs up my sleeve hehehe. Piano class got me thinking about my music capabilities, i shouldnt just stop at a lesson, i should further myself to learn more from it, and thats what i want to do.

I was so happy after third period, hahaha I GOT A C+ on my quarter exam, i think thats pretty amazing considering it was tough like anything. I just wanted to go all hyper and pick chau up, but it wouldve have been embarassing and she was looking at her friends grade so i let it go. But i was still happy from the grade. So i met up with patu on the way to lunch and we started stalking a freshman, haha she is kinds obsessed with the boy, but dont tell her i said that. Shhhh :3 My lunch even though it was simple was pretty tasty.

So it's been 2 days so far, im hopeful yet afraid that i might do something wrong along the run of this week. I pray i dont, i really dont want to mess up anymore. i want to prove to you that im worth it, that i can be something good for you, that i can be there just for you. I guess its been itching me in the back of my head. I just got to let it out, i know we are young, years wait before we can make that special commitment, thousands of people will walk by us, countless days will pass, other people may see it unlikely, but its the thing im most sure of. This relationship is the meaning of Actaulity.

So i took the bus today even though i knew i wasnt gonne be there for long, i dont mind, i want to take any chance i have of being with you and use it. 1minute, 5 minutes, 10 minutes, a couple seconds, its all precious.

So tommorow i dont think there is much hang out time, you're tutoring and im uhh either going home, or hanging with jansen. To be completely honest the whole tutoring thing bothered me before, i was jealous of the fact that she would be one on one with someone else. It was really immature. I know, i was really stupid. You told me i should trust you, and i do. You can tutor the hottest, coolest, funniest, smartest, guy in school and ill trust you like i trust you with my life. haha why would the smartest guy need tutoring anyway? xD

Lately ive been feeling kinda hyper, i cant stay still for long periods of time, i hope its just excitement better not be a medical condition.

Oh and btw talk about excitement hehe xD. You know that im talking about, only you can make them happen. :O

I really miss you chau, i really wanted to spend collab with you, but no i have to tutor those kids that dont pay attention in class and feel that they are invincible >:| its not gonna be fun. I hope we can hang out at least a little tomorrow though.

I need to find surveys to do, or some personal questionnaires.

Your little rocket ship sent my face to the planet of smiles { corny} it was really creative. I love your creativity and the fact that you write pretty good for left handed. hehe So talented :D oh and at the end of you letter you said no for me xD and btw i love & miss you more.

















end of story :DDDDDDD


i miss you.

And the next day

It was a night like this, yesterday. So much we talked about , the good, the bad, the unspeakable, and our wishes. It was a serious talk, and i knew we had to make our points clear, so that's what we did. We were confused and questioning some things, but we knew what we wanted and what we had to do for it. I want to prove to you chauzy, ill prove it. I want this more than anything in the world. You were there for me when i was about to give up on life itself. You saved me from my own destruction. Like you said I make you sound like a magnificent person, that's only because you are. You make me F2 like anything. You are so amazing.

So today, i woke up early and got lunch for chauzy, bbq steak and maccaroni, sounds yummy huh? yeah that's for lunch. First period brought more lessons in math, 3rd brought a spooky story which you can find here www.chimm.bravejournal.net . 5th brought a sub and laptop time. Lunch = Cheeseticks. 7th brought more weight training ha.
After school the bus came a bit late, so we huddle from the rain. The bus came and we took a ride home. We went home and watched friends and i had a blast :D. So i bought nexon for us, and we are now a kitty and a duck haha and we own. I really really enjoy spending time in the room, friends, flirting, food, its all so wonderful. And btw you have nice clothes and you can pull off everything :]. So the bus came and i got home, i took a nice warm shower and ate dinners. We played maple and got chauzy to 43 :DDD. My kitty, puzzle piece, inspiration of a girlfriend :].

What a rainy day

I woke up this morning freezing, because apparently my heater wasn't on. Then i ate some breakfast and i took a shower to wake me. I got a call from chauzy to see when i was leaving, i was supposed to be at the bus stop at 11:06 but my parents forced me to eat so i didn't make it. Instead i took the one 11:36, i arrived around 12ush and i couldn't wait to see her. I was soaking wet, that darn rain snuck up on me, i think i almost caught a cold, but with layers of blankets i was warm and cozy again, So we watched friends on the awesome lap top and had a great time. I enjoy watching freinds with chauzy, i enjoy seeing her smile, laugh, and giggle. It gives me a good feeling and makes me feel happy. I really dont know where i would be without her. She saved my life at one point, if she wasnt there im not sure in what condition i would be in. It's funny because like we talked about, we dont look for movie moments, the just sorta happen with us, and its wonderful each time. Those movie moments are rare and so is a girl like this, i feel really lucky, so much more lucky. It was time for me to go, and it was raining again, luckily i had the trusty pink tweety umbrella, i dont care how ridiculous i looked walking around holding it, at least i was dry and its chauzys :]. I got home and took a warm shower and put on some warm clothes, then i talked and played maple with chauzy till it was 7. We headed over to the haunted house and it was quite scary, probably more scary than last year. Hehe it was so scary in fact, my back twitched xD chauzy got scared, i wanted to punch the ones that were scaring her, but if i did i would have probably gotten suspended. After that we went to go eat pho, it was tastyyyy, then we went back to school and drop chau off to go home. I made my way back home and it was scary in the dark, but chaus singing helped calm me and made my way back home so much easier. She makes the dark alleys brighter than a sunny highway :D

edit : i miss & love you more, end of story. hehe say something in your blog :D

Finally Friday :D

woooo what a week. For some reason it felt like the week went by slowly and at the same time quickly. It was the tests that slowed it down and the laughs that sped it up. Well today i woke up and my mom left already so i had to get the junior ready for his school. I cooked up a small breakfast for him and attempted to wake him up. He sleeps like a rock. So i made my way into school, i took a shortcut this morning and i saw a deer in the woods. At first i got scared because there was this tall 4 legged animal in the middle of the forest in the dark, but then as i got to see it more clearly i could see how calm and the hope of animal still existing in the growing industrial world. Sometimes it makes me sad that humans find the need to chop down forests for malls, its rather pathetic. If i were and animal i would be a Flying pig, because i can make any ones wishes possible haha. As in blah blah , when pigs fly, and i would fly by :D. So yeah i made it to school and saw chauzy waiting at the locker, she made me waffles :DDDD they were tasty. Oh and i have the weekend to finish my quarter exam so that's good. We went to class and took our piano exam. I stressed so much that my fingers started shaking i messed up and yeah, i should of just stayed calm, oh well ill make it up by playing the next songs much better. I'm proud of chauzy she got a 20/20 on the hardest song :D she inspires me. Fourth period physics exam was tough -_- i don't think i did so well, but my teacher toned down the grade percentages so hopefully it wont be that bad. I had spicy chicken for lunch, and it was well spicy today. In my fifth period i did more research on the group project, my teacher freaked today because she saw a picture of abortions. Why would people abort, i mean i know its a woman's choice and all, but everyone has a right to live, and if you dont want to get pregnant use protection, its as simple as that. sigh. But yeah Spanish class i wrote an essay and then talked about art. It made me drowsy. Oh did i mention i had a very hyper conversation with vicky today. haha when after i talk to vicky i feel like i need a nap. xD So me and chauzy took the bus home and made our venture towards the house. It was pretty cold today and i felt so cozy as i layed in a warm room. We watched friends hehe yeah it was fun. Chauzy went to her elementary school fun night thing, so i went home, but as i got off the bus i didnt feel like going home for some reason, i felt like taking a stroll. So i walked to loehmans and went "window shopping" i bumped into a few people from school, and ate a taquito. Im such a fatty haha. When i got home a ate even more xD, i took a warm shower and then got on the computer. Speaking of which chauzy got her laptop to work again :DD its so awesome, now we can talk even at night on aim, but phone is always nice. And she can update her blog and even play mobile maplestory haha. I think i wanna go to the haunted house tomorrow, i passed by the room on my way home and i could hear a lot of screaming so i bet it was scary. I really miss her, so much. It hasn't even been a day yet and i just want to find a way to meet up with her again. I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you so much, and i love you more end of story :DDD I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you :]]]]

Thursdayays

It's thursday already :O, for some reason when i blog my days they go by quicker. This morning i woke up from rolling off my bed, i had a twitching dream haha. So i got up and got ready for school, showers feel so good in the morning, i always have a tendency to just fall asleep in the shower. So i walked to school in the nippy weather, it is getting colder and colder, time to bring out the winter clothes haha. Today i ate breakfast from the school with chauzy, the bagel was goooood. We went to first period and all i did was review the new chapter. We got assigned seats. Third period brought more Halloween stories. I cant wait till Halloween, i love getting free candy, i don't care how old i get, trick or treating never gets old and i plan to this year too. I had spaghetti for lunch hoy dia. Era rico. Fifth period assigned a group project, the project itself seems easy, i just hope the people in my group do something. Weight training class was okay today, all i did was run and lift haha. After school i met up with chauzy. It was weird though, i was looking forward down the hallway i guess i spaced out. But as i was walking i felt her presence and i turned around and there she was :D. So i miss the math meet but its okay it was only 2 points. We ran to the bus just in time sort of, haha it was fun running. I enjoyed the bus ride today, it was really calm. I went visit our house and it was really enjoyable. I mentioned some stuff about the past that lead up here with her. It's pretty interesting how my wishes actually became actuality. I couldnt be any happier :] Her eyes are amazing, they're so shiny. Shiny like brand new pennies and shiny like polished glass, i find them very attractive. The letter she gave me today gave me gave me quite a big smile :DDD i loved reading it, it made me feel so important in this world. She is the water to my water bottle, the light to my light house, the beats of my heart, the value to my dollar, the whip to my cream, the cheese to my cake, the balloon to my water, the shine to my sun, the smile to my emotion, the faith to my humanity, the jingle to my jingle bells, the mickey to my goofy, the lace to my shoelace, the pop to my popcorn, this can go on for ever too. You are everything to me, Chau :]

We we wednesday

I would like to start off saying, yay wednesday. This test weekend is going by kinda slow. I made breakfast again this morning. I got up a little bit earlier to make a small lunch for chauzy, i didnt want to leave her with nothing to eat. Sooo i got to school and there she was, waiting at her locker, she look comfy in her pea coat sweater, she always looks pretty. We ate our breakfast than got to piano class. I really like the sounds of pianos nowadays. Sometimes i hear songs and i make a piano version in my head. After that we walked to our jag time and there was an announcement about changing collab days, sigh now we are forced to go to school early. Either way i couldn't wait till jag time ended. I met up with chauzy again then we wished each other good luck on our tests. The thing was she didn't have hers today. I did, part 1 at least and it was okay, i think i did okay. Lunch brought me eggs and cereal xD it was tasty. 5th period i finished up my exam and took a short tetris break ahah. i suck at tetris :O. Spanish class wasn't as boring today, we talked about Spanish art and it was said that a field trip is coming soon to an art museum. I went to our locker after school only to find a note. :] it made me smile, she took her time to write me a little note so i wouldn't worry, she is amazing :]. We got on the bus and made our voyage home. I don't mind that i didn't actually go home because the bus ride was worth it every time.

I got home around 4 ish, because the bus kept stopping at red lights for like5 minutes each. When i got home i made dinner and folded some of my clothes. I gave chauzy a call and i cant wait to get her call back.

I really like coldplay's music now, for some reason i find it inspirational. I think music is one of the greatest things made. Not only is it enjoyable but it all has a meaning. It saves moments, sets moments, and makes people happy. Music is awesome.

Tommorow is Thursday and i have VSA after school. I think we are discussing final t-shirt decisions and heritage night. Chauzy has to tutor so i guess we wont be hanging out that day, oh and i have weight training, i got a bit stronger cause of it. But yeah, it feels weird not hanging out with chau, when i don't i feel like something empty happened in my day, but i suppose we can hang out some other day.

As i walked home i went inside school cause it was cold outside and on my way out the back i saw liz, sammy, and vy anh learning how to break dance haha, it was interesting i guess now we are gonna have girl break dancers.

I really miss chau.

Too too tuesday :D

Another days at school, a study bound but fun day. I started off my day at 5:00 am, i woke up surprisingly active. I guess i couldnt wait to get the day started. I made breakfast for me and chauzy. Bacon,eggs, and bread. It was tasty tasty. I got to school around 6:44 ish, i think i won :D.

I said good morning to the person that gives me the energy for the day, she is my charger hehe. First period i had a math test, but i forgot my calculator :O but its okay because it really tested if i knew the material, which i did :D. And then someone lent me theirs.

I like organizing, haha during jag time i was standing in the front of the classroom just organizing pens by color and size. I find it fun..

So third period came and the exam was surprisingly eassyyyyyyy. All we did was summarize topics and draw webcharts. I enjoy walking with chau in the halls, it make me feel like i own the hall :3

Lunch was okay i suppose, i ate pizza. I haven't eaten pizza in a while, it was quite satisfying. Fifth period brought yet another exam, which i was proud of because i looked around and saw that most of the people were cheating and i wasn't. I laid my head on my sunny d bottle and got to work.

Physical fitness exam was cake, all i had to do was run 10 laps under 20 minutes which i did :D.

After school ended i met up with chauzy and we hanged(sp) out for a bit, then she went to a field hockey meeting. *she is good at field hockey :D

I met up with the crew and had a little session. We had a tournament* i passed the first 2 rounds and got tired, luckily chau called and saved me from embarrassment if i continued. We went to the field again, it was really windy but nice. We strolled to an adventure :D

Mondayday

Today i woke up pretty early in the morning, i had something special to do. Seeing as how testing week is here we people need to be fueled for the day, that's why i made breakfast to eat. It was yummy and i think chau thought so too, i got all her favorites :D. Eggs, bacon, and even potato bread that i had to buy this morning. IT WAS GOOD.

Uhh, a snag in the day, i felt terrible, i really did. I made a mountain out of a molehill, as the phrase goes. I should've been more cooperative, i regret being so dead like, i should have taken more action. And to make it worse i walked out on her :[. That was probably the longest walk I've taken to jag time. I was thinking in my head what a big mistake i just made, and for some reason my feet just kept walking, stupid brain couldn't stop being arrogant. I really dislike having such a thing happen, it makes me feel terrible, and she is the one i go to for support when I'm in trouble, but when she is the one that is away i have no one. I rushed from class to meet her up before she got to fifth but i was too late :\ . In those few moments i realized something. She is a big puzzle piece in my heart. Without her I'm not complete. I need her to be in place in my heart, and that would complete me. I don't care how many times I'm wrong, or admit my mistakes because i love her so much. My pride doesn't matter, she does. I didn't want to tell her that in front of a classroom, or between classes. I wanted to tell her that after school.

Lunch was empty for some reason, i mean the place was full of people, but the food makes me feel empty. I wish i could cook for the cafeteria, i think i would be a successful chef.

So later on the day i met up with her in the hallway after school. I know i put a stoic look in my face, but inside i was really happy and relieved that i bumped into her. We walked and talked, and even in our serious talks she looks like an angel. We made up and i tried picking her up, first time i phailed xD, second was a bit more successful. We had to hop the fence to go to the long awaited field :] It was funny, she is so cute trying to climb over the fence. I was glad to have visited the field with her again, it put a smile to my chapped by the cold weather face hehe. I took the late bus home with her, man the metro bus is so much quicker haha. I love that she introduced fish fillet to me. Its so good and its a better option than microwaved patties. I feel like a married couple haha when we go eat, (its a really nice feeling). Nexon ftw! yeah i bought one today, it was for a good cause :3. The bus came and it was chilly. Bus rides are so peaceful, it makes me feel like im in a mystery movie.

MY PHONE SUX, like to the max. I don't like it, i know tmobile hates me haha, the funny thing is
sometime when it doesn't work, i would thinking and saying "if you don't work, ill throw you across the field" then i try again and it works xD.

Maplestory is so much fun when i play with her. We own. Like badly. :D

What a journey on this day :]

A Moments Glory

It's been a pretty long time since I've posted in this blog. So much has happened the past months, weeks, days. As time goes on, the days go by and every moment of it I can't help but miss her. As soon as I say goodbye, I walk out the door, the thing that strikes my mind is turning around and saying hello again. It's an amazing thing how much she means to me, she inspires me, she motivates me, and she make me a better person. Walks around town, watching t.v., riding the bus. It all makes me smile. And to think how simple the answer is to me. I will not give up, I know I won't give up. Even if we are apart 100 miles, there's a will and there is a way. I've experienced many new things, found new interests, found fun stuff to do. And it all came form realizing myself through her. I don't have to pretend or act too mature or even impress. I act myself and I'm accepted for that, it gives me a really big smile.
I feel so lucky and very fortunate. I think my good karma finally became a reality. It's hard being in a place where all that surrounds us is corruption, drug abuse, lies, and crime. It's been hard on me too, seeing my friends act in such a manner, it's disappointing. I see them from the past, how innocent they were, how fun times used to be without such things. And now i see them only talking about such things and looking forward to getting high or drunk. It's funny because they have tried to influence me into doing such things as well, but i know my place in the world. I know that my parents gave birth to me not to do drugs or smoke, I was put here to respect my body, my family, and my future. It wasnt easy to do at first, but the answer became very clear. It's my choice and my choice is not to belittle myself like others. I know what i want in this life, and for it i need to be clean and thats my choice for the rest of my future.
I honestly thought that things in senior year wouldnt be as hard, I heard that it was a year to just chill and do the occasional stuff, but i realize i need to work my shoes off haha. Yeah. What makes it easier is being able to walk out of class and seeing the smile that just cleans all the halls of corruption. She is my faith in humanity, she is my hope that not everyone falls to influence, she inspires me even more to be a better human being as well as a person. She puts faith in my heart, and i am so grateful for it.
This girl, this amazing girl, probably has no idea how lucky I am. To finnally meet someone who has so much things in common with me. She laughs at my jokes even if they're not even remotely funny, she supports me in the things i want to do, she gives me new food to try (which i enjoy very much), and i would do anything for her.

I'll be here always :]

















p.s. i miss & love you more. end of story.