oh the places you can go

it's saturday and it was boring. And frankly, it sucked. I didnt do much today but stuff my face with food, mind you it was healthy food, 4 cheesesticks, 2 yogurts, soup, cereal, and steak dinner. I really cant wait till i graduate ill be out of these constraining places, i want to be able to travel and drive not be stuck at home. I've come to realize that i really miss playing lacrosse today, i went to the field to meet up with chau, because i thought it was like a test or something, but she didnt go so i just stuck around and practiced for a bit, and all the nostalgia came back. When i was 1st string player making shots, shouting commands, calling runs, it was fun. And these kids came by so we passed the ball around for a while. Then i arrived back home.

It's almost spring break, i don't know what's in store, but anything off school will be nice.

I want to organize more again, i feel like it actually, i want this better lifestyle, a neater one that is more manageable.

So i had like little time to talk with chau today, most of the time she was afk or i had to go to stores, it seriously feels like i havent seen hers in years, and it's only been one day. What if i can't see her for a week, or a month, or a year. Will i be able to handle it? It's always possible it can happen, i'm pretty sure we can handle it.

I've been getting in the excercising mood, where i want to run again, more often and i want to train more, and get back to breakdancing once more.

Today while chau was away i was reading fml, and ome of these people have suckish lives, i feel bad for them. They have embarrassing moments, cheating relationships, bad jokes and all that. I mean it's weird but i guess when you're in a bad mood that site can cheer you up in a weird way.

So tida randomly IMed me today, and we had a convo about work, and i told her how hollister rejected me and she said one of the reasons was because i wasnt wearing hollister clothing xD which could be true because i was wearing a dress shirt and jeans when the other ppeople who were at the interview were wearing hollister clothing. We also had a weird convo of awkward fruits xD like a guava. That's a weird word. Guava.

Hmm, what else went on today, oh yeah i drank 6 water bottles today :P

It's been one day, but i miss chau like crazy. I think im insane, and my medicine would be a dose of chau, in the morning, afternoon, and evening :P

bum bum bababa

i fell hyper right now, and the weather is awesome again. I'm glad it is because it's about time to go outside, i found a bunch of my old cd's from the songs i used to listen to in the past, man i didnt realize i was so into alternative rock. Like bands like greenday, yellowcard, franz Ferdinand and such. i was a little white washed boy :P It's friday :D the weekend is finally here, the weekend went by quite slow today and since i didnt weight train today i feel kinda limp so ill go exercise after this blog, we had no weight training because our teacher took us to free day, but i got skillz on b-ball, not really.

It's been a while since we hung out, especially with all the heritage night, and softball, and today was just a relaxing day for both of us. I feel so well when i'm with you, all the homework and tests and all that disappears when we lay together. ;P

So i made a sims family today and they look funny xD they are stupid though, the first thing they do is burn the house, those noobs.

I got home later on and realized i didnt have my cell phone like midway home, so i retraced my steps to check if i lost it, and then as i got to the practice fields worried that i lost my phone, i remember that ii put it on top of my bookbag and left it there. I realized that the phone is like my only clock.

Just 2 more months till graduation, am i excited? yes and no. Yes being because i'm outta here, im done with higschool :P, ill graduate have a car and a better chance of a job. And no because i got used to the whole school thing, it's like a place to meet with others and communicate but that can happen outside of highschool to, so i guess im rather anxious :D tis shall be a good years

oh yeahs, i listened to a lot of my old techno tracks and they bring back some memories.

I'm starting to broaden my liking to all sorts of music, and it's going good, i just wish i had an ipod to take them in. Mine broke D: maybe once i get a job oh wells :P

tis all for now, till next time :D

i miss chauzyy

A day without you

What can i say, you're part of my morning life now, and when you're not their it's like the feeling when you forget to brush your teeth. You just have to brush, same way i want you to be theres :P

Well it was quite quiet today and i wore relaxed clothes with sandals for the time in a long time.

Umm what else, i drank extra loads of water, and i packed sandwiches for lunch.

I don't know, the whole day i was hoping she would pop out of her classroom at one point, and softball must have taken a toll on you, hehe now you know what jelly legs are like :P

Well, i'm still doing homework so goodbyes for now. Really short post btw D:


I really really really really really mss chau, like a whole bunch.

Snappers

Hummms today was really windy and cold, haha you know, sometimes i feel like the wind is purposely blowing so hard to annoy me. So i gots to school and i felt rather relaxed even though its a monday, many people arent monday people, but i vary from time to time. SO i came in really relaxed today :D, i would've worn sandals but it was really cold. SO i spent the morning with chauzy, and then off to class. I got my grades back and honestly for midterms, i think i improved :D which is always good. SO the real deals began after school, i went home and felt like a pro after i fixed a locked ipod, i am a genius!!! mwhahaha.. and yeah back to the library sneaking a tartpop. It was chauzy's first day of softball and i r really proud of that girl. Because, anyone can stay home in her words and get straight A's but someone who goes out there and still manages to get good grades is a genius in my book, and that's what she is a smarty pants :P

Well a bit of bad news, hollister never called or emailed back, so im guessing i didnt get the job, unfortunately. But you know, that's okay because it'll just teach me a new lesson in the job world, there's acceptance and greater expectations, but i just gots to work harder :D

So aways i go to sleep soon, and you need to sleep to, and ill pack you a snack and water for you tommorow. Goodnight :D


I miss chau :]

A mid renewal

Today went by slow, i woke up, ate breakfast got ready for church and left. Not much of a sunday morning, but on the car ride over i had so much in my head, even while playing DS with my little brother. I don't think it's ever too late to change, or to make something happen for yourself. All that is required is a little bit of motivation and dedication, a little of that can go a long way. And on the car ride, i went over my life, through all those thoughts time seemed to slow down, i remembered my childhood, how i had barely any friends, how i would play by myself in the park, and every now and then someone would come by to join me. I remembered that insane babysitter, the neighborhood i used to live in, the school i used to attend. I remembered how shy i was and how good in school i was in elementary schools. I remembered my crush during 6th grade, and the fact that i was patrol captain even though no one new me. The life i lived in the past i could not change because i was small and i didn't know how life worked yet. I didnt know about the truths and lives that go on. I couldn't do much but live my life carelessly. I remembered my times in middle school. I remembered how small i was, how new the school was to me, and how new the people were. I guess during those years i silently learned about the world more often. I learned that drama existed, that he likes/she likes goes around everywhere, and that i was actually growing even if it was a little. I remember meeting one close friend that probably changed my life. I recall the style i was wearing, Vans shoes, ecko jeans, and loose shirts. Rather funny looking back. I remember that slowly but surely i was beginning to make friends. And from that one person i made friends with, a whole tree of friends became abundant. I met the people that i go to high school with today on that year. I became more outgoing because of them, i became less frightened of what people were like. And i definitely had more fun in 8th grade then i did in 7th.

I remember how routine my summers were, the occasional friend visits, my family vacations to the beach, water parks and such.

And when high school started, that's when life had a huge new door opened. Sadly i remembered how lazy i had gotten, being jealous of everyone elses smartness, i was squalid with my work. My freshman year was pathetic. Even though i became morre outgoing with more friend, i still did little in school and that cost me dearly today. Sophomore year was also my squalid year, i look back and wish that i did work harder in school,seeing how challenging it is to get up when you've fallen so much, but i'm up for the challenge, it was the year where i figured what kind of girls i was into, the years where drama involved me as well, and the year where hobbies entered my life. I remembered my junior year and all that it offered. I remember meeting new people and starting a new. I was regaining my efforts in school, and my fitness. I met someone and we had it going for while, but on that same year i learned of pain, pain that cuts deeper then any knife, a type of pain that's crushes like a hundred boulders. Betrayal and lies, all that happened, but i also learned of an amazing feeling called courage and understanding, i met a hero who in time became the best thing in my life. From my crushed state, she picked me up with both hands willing to help me tackle my challenges head on, with her help i got up and dusted my self off. I learned that in life there are many surprises to be in store. And that one of those surprises can be just what you've been looking for your entire life. And for once, my summer wasn't routine, my summer was exciting, i learned of a relationship unlike any other. A special kind, where you just know no matter how far, or how distant the other is, you'll always feel like im right next to you. During the summer i experienced such an amazing feeling, under the bright colorful lights, i saw her face glowing in the night. I was standing next to the girl i was certain i would one day live in a house with, on that day it was certain, this one special girl, hero, savior, motivation, the person who made me a stronger person myself, that i love her.

I look back to all those times and in the car i looked out and i got a sense of inspiration, it's not too late to work even harder. That's why i want to shape up myself, embrace my hobbies and talents, and llive more healthy.

I know that life is full of surprises and cliff to climb, but i know that we'll get past all that, and we will smile one day in the future to each other, while we sit on our couch watching a movie.

I feel inspired to do.


P.s. I miss chauzy



p.p.s I love Chau :D

The dayss

today is just one of those days, where things go just smoothly. No morning arguments with my family , no late buses and such, decent weather, and a wonderful time to spend with someone special. I'd say it's a nice way to unwind after a long time practicing and rehearsing and being frustrated because of a show. It was a good way to just relax for a moment, and the moment was great. It's a really good day, even when i got home, there was good dinner and my family was spending the day watching movies. Today was just on of those rare days, where everyone just seems relaxed and happy.

I hope for more if these dayss and im anxious for the call for my job interview :P

I miss chauzyy

what a sweet ending.

Let's see, we started i'd say around a month ago, and everyday we would make practices but we'd never fully attend them, and i guess that cost us. But in the final weeks of it all the pressure of it made others work harder. There were some people who got off task from time to time, but eventually they learned it all and were able to pull off quite a great show :D As for myself, i feel like a real jerk. I really dislike my serious self. I tried being serious to be able to perform better and each time it made me feel more distant from my real self. That is why, i just let it all go today. And by all i mean, my seriousness, my desprateness, and my fear. I admitted that sometimes the way she is just crazy attractive, and that i wont be serious jim, he'll probably never come back. So good bye serious jim, hello regular jim. haha, the show today was so hectic though. We had a room and many practices, and alot of frustration, alot of nae calling, a lot of sighs, but then again a lot of laughter. Through all the hardwork and rudeness, smiles and cheers find it's way. We arrived at the room and got all settled played some cards and waited for others to come and join us. They eventually came by with food , so we ate and stuffed our faces. It was time to get started . So we got changed in the same room....which was awkward..and i put on my soldier pants :D. And chau had her really nice pink aio-aiowee (sp) and she look amazingly beautiful! har har and she is mine >:D and so we started the show. The girls fan dance was quite entertaining and it was fun to watch as well. The co-ed dance thankfully went really well, and im glad everyone had their part down :D, for the martial arts part we enjoyed quite a fun show and as for the fashion show, everyone loooked fashionable.

This was really a good show, before i graduate im glad that chau and I participated :D

the fifth teenth

What can i say, yesterday was simply amazing. Not only did i have a picnic with food and enviorment ;D but i also got a video for our 9 months. Its interesting how it landed on valentines day huh? :D that was quite a fun picnic, i hope you liked your cake and i really really really like the video you made me, that was probably the best picnic i've had, and to top it off we got chips and salsa hehe. So the practice was ehh but that's okay it was a fun time overall.

100th. o.o

THIS IS IT. this is that long awaited 100th post, man 100 times on this site to write something. It's been quite the experience. It may not seem like a big deal but when you write over 100 entries then its a big deal. Har har i feel accomplished. :D

So today was quite the adventure, i came to school to the friendly and very beautiful chauzy, and it was just what i needed in the morning, gave me that boost of energy. And through out the school day i felt pumped. But i worked on a paper that didnt get turned in because there was a sub T_T and we played poker during that time, and for 5th i presented my project which i think went swell :D, and 7th was nap time haha.

The real fun began afterschool, the practice and then to a windy area, a long bus ride and a walk to the store. Playdoh for some reason *wink wink*, and i shall bake a cake, for the first time in a long time. I want it to taste really good. On the way home we ate some beef steww yum :D and got a donut but since i got hookups i gots a free one as well :D that was good and i dropped the chaustur home and i got on the bus as well, It was quite a fun day and only 2 more till 9 months :D what a interesting thing that it's on valentines day as well :P.

I r missing chau :D

99th

ooh almost 100 posts, 100 entries dating back since sophomore year, man how time went by, alot happened, i guess the teenage life, but i grew up from teenager to young adult :P So yeah tommorow shall be my 100th post :D which is pretty cool. So today was a pretty empty day at school, it always is when chau's not there, the halls seem empty despite the mass amount of people walking down the halls. It's such a relief when the last bell rings to go home, because i pay a visit to chauzers :D, oh yeah my friend finally paid me back and now im 10$ away from being able to finally take that darn driving class, after this is out it'll be such a relief. So yes the bus ride home was quite awkward haha, so i got off the bus and got home. It was nice but today was a landmark for me, because to be honest i've been hiding a bit of my true self, the side of me that can't control anger and that's why i've been trying to hide it, but instead of hiding it i should learn to control it. Well, is it really the small things that i do that count? wouldn't it be better if i was more outgoing and more romantic but i'm not, im not that creative, i cant make the best ideas or dates, im just the ordinary guy who tries as hard as he can to make that special someone happy, i hope that's enough.

I'm starting to like the sims, i wants to install them today >:D

I need to clean my room, like bad.

I need to get more fit.

I shall do these things.

plus i r hungry more often :P

I miss chauy :D

snap i just spell checked and everything was spelled right on my first try. :D

phewwww

I'm getting so lazy, my room is a complete mess and so is my bookbag, my organizing passion is fading, i get lazy when i start, i dont know what's changed but i guess im losing interest in being organized sadly. School was bleh in the morning i waited and i felt so out of place just standing infront of a locker, but i waited just incase someone came by, and eventually she did after jagtime, but as long as she made it, i think it wouldve been better for her to stay home, but she said she had a lot of work to do so she stayed, and suffered through school. I read her blog and she claims that she is tired of being in a place where no one appreciates her, but that's okay because this place wont be here for long, soon you'll move and meet new people, new places, and new friends. Todays trip to cloth stores was interesting because turns out none of them was good and the ones that were so expensive but we got chipotle and that's all that mattered :P that and the fact that we havent eaten that together in a long time. I forgot to call my father but it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be when i got home. i got worried when chau went home by herself, it scares me, but i know she is a toguh girl so i should ease up a bit. Luckily she is starting to feel better, and should be sleeping so she can be fine but she will after this.

I am missing chau right now, alot.

p.s. evelina has crutches.....that nub

p.s.s Chau looks amazing in traditional asian clothes

p.p.s I want to wear that robe :P

Stage Lights

On the stage, that feeling is great, knowing what you worked hard on to show the world. That's what happened today but it wasnt quite the high school musical scenario xD So first the reunion at the auditorium, then got the materials ready, and then got in positions. As soon as everyone was about to start the music is all high pitched and funky sounding xD it was hilarious to say the least i chuckled inside, but ehh it messed things ups, but that's okay because i have the chance to edit and now i can make it sound better and i have to thank chau for the suggestion of cutting the time down because now it sounds like it has a finale. I have to say that the fan dance part was quite good, it was coordinated and it look spiffy, the colors were really eye catching. I gots to say the fashion show would take the cake, because chau looks amazingly beautiful in that chinese dress. I feel really lucky, i am the guy who's with the hot chick in the asian dress har har :D We gots to practice more but i know that we are able to put ona good show we just gots to work hard on it. The trip home was exhilirating bought speakers then false bus stop and then a relaxing stay at home with mi amor :D she gots the food down it was tasty and it was twice as good when you eat with your love. haha i sound non manly but oh well i dont care, I LOVE CHAU. Oh yeah vacation count ..... like 6 times o.o thanks :P

Well yeah chauzy needs to rest so i shall see you tommorow and i hopes you feel better, ill take care of you :D

I miss chauzy

nights

bleep

saturdays D: man, this one was boriing. I did like nothing today, i went grocery shopping, and then i cleaned the bathroom, my room, and downstairs, i layed in my bed and slept away. I would occasionally try to call chau, and no answer so i'd go back to my bed and lay there. There was this one point in my sleep that i had a really weird dream.

So it started off with me leaving chau's house, and there was this man, standing out in front of the house so i told her, to stay in her room and i would leave from the back quietly. So i succeeded in doing that but then i heard really loud knocking and that man was trying to break into the house, so i grab a brick and hit him in the head with it, and told her to get out of the house. And then she came out the back and we made a run for it, the man was starting to get up and we made it to this snowy field, it was like an industrial park and it was really fast paced, and then out of nowhere there were gunshots and we had to duck, we got to this little fence room and this guy was like take these bikes, go to that warehouse, my friends will protect you, so we did and as the guy who helped us was getting on his bike he got shot all over, we had to keep going so we did, chau's bike locked up and she spinned and crashed she tried getting up but she had a broken leg, and then even in my dreams my heart just stopped from that scene, i can't bear to see her hurt, it crushed me. So i put her on my back and made a run for the warehouse and he crooks got closer and closer, and as i was so close to reaching it i felt a sharp sting in the middle of my chest, red soaked my shirt, but at least chau made it. it all turned blurry and the warehouse people did help us, they got rid of the crooks and the next thing i knew i was lying in a room with bandages all over, and chau sitting right next to me. I felt a feeling of extreme happiness, because we survived the beginning of apocalypse. The dream goes on but it gets scarier so thats pretty much it for nows. Yeah pretty funky dream, but even unconsiously im mad in love with chau :P

I miss her so much it feels like forevers and i cant wait to bake :D

Peppy day

today was quite the exciting day, i wore purple for the first time evarr, my teacher wants me to write for the local newspaper, and chauzy was beautiful as ever, and twice as cute. Most of the day was still curricular but those meetings between the classes are what made it just as exciting to walk, and the pep rally was ehhh, i really like the drumline part and my first cha cha slide with chauzy. Our attempts with sims failed :p but we'll try agains. Well ill write more soon, gots to go eat.

I miss chau


I back, because the chausturr told me so. So for some reason all the stuff im typing is being highlighted as a mispelled word. This is some nub. SO any ways didnt do much since the time i ate and now, i just played a bit of spore. It's quite the weird fun game. You start as a cell and grow till you reach space exploration era. Right now my character looks like a dinosaur. Yeah....

So yeah i just watched braveheart, and it's a really sad but inspiring movie, the way the main character is tortured at the end is crucial and the public is booing him, but then after they see more suffering they realize what kind of squabble they are being, they see the pain and suffering of the man and finally hear the words that speak to their heart, freedom. Goes to show that one person can make a difference in this tough world.

I'm craving chocolatee and like relaly bad, I want to eat everything chocolate i dont know why o.o

More failblog for the wins

okays i think i need to go eat some more, i hungry :P

good bye

I miss chau


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A doggy day

SOooo today was quite the academic day, it was filled with knowledge and exercise, It was stoplight day, and i got to wear red shirts with chau today :D It was quite an enjoyable style. I started writing my article for my English project and i think its going quite nicely and running into chau the whole day were those little moments that made going to school worthwhile. She took a quiz after school and i went home to see if it was okay, but my bro and his gf brought over their new dog, royal. Its a lab puppy and it's quite fat. So i went back to school and hanged (sp) with chau for a bit, then she went home and i went home to a nice warm nap.

Frozen Delights

It's been quite an interesting weather week, first the snow, then the chilly winds, then the ice storms, then the breezy days, and then warm spring feeling days. Yup it's been an up and down climate. I really enjoyed these past 2 days of weather, it's been warm, not to cold, and really brights, it reminds me of that time in the field last year during May, those were some fun days.

Hmm, i wonder if it shall snow tonight, i doubt it because on my walk home i noticed the air was way to moist for the snow to make it all the way to ground level, so turns out we're gonna have a long school week. And i guess it feels that way since we've been having short days.

Yesterday some of my friends came over to work on the show for heritage night, and it was going okay until people started getting hungry. Sigh, i really had no clue what to make so i just brought down some random stuff, thankfully it satisfied everyone, but i ended up making less then what called for, but all in all it was a good attempt :P

I enjoy walking around this weather with chauzy, it's very cozy and it's quite a comfortable stroll.

I need to start making my project come to life for english, but first i need permission from the heritage night person. Then i can start filming some people and cultures.

I want to get back into playing guitar and i'll also keep practicing my piano, i wanna be more musical.

So i got spore recently, and it's quite addicting i made my own species and they are called Zanos :P they look like jelly beans hehe, and right now they're in a tribla stage. Pretty fun

I miss Chau a whole bunch