Who knew?

*edit* Just taking it easy, living life day by day :]

It's time to be honest, i guess I've been rushing myself into thinking that i could escape from this kind of feeling. But i just need to live it through. Rushing into meeting new people or doing things you'll later regret is not the way, and i feel bad for doing that. I have to be true to myself and just enjoy life for the moment, for what it's given.

Perhaps, some possibility exists where i can just live my life knowing the people i have in it are there. Just knowing and remember things from the past, not being obligated to follow a trend or a code. Just being there to learn, to laugh, to smile, to free my mind, but at the same time keeping all the people in my life special to me. I would highly like that.

I had a talk today, and it first it was hard to comprehend, because i believed that i meant nothing to her anymore, just another friendly face in the crowd, but perhaps it's more than that, it doesnt necessarily have to be a bf/gf thing or "relationship",because i believe that our friendship and that unique bond that we share is pretty darn strong. It's nice having that one person in your life that you just tell anything to, and ill do the same for you. You're my go to girl haha, for the laughs, the sighs, the crys o.o, and the surprises, and ill be your go to guy. I dont think I've ever met someone like this, before, it's pretty fortunate i did.

Anyhoo, i need uber help with html. D:

A little bit of closure.

Come to think of it, i didn't make any closure to the past. And I guess for some time that's been in my mind. So i am going to get some closure.

I really am glad i met you, you changed me as a person, i became a better person, a more courageous person, a more determined person, a more real person, and i thank you for that Chau.

What we had was quite the adventure i must say, memories i wont forget. Thanks for bringing me smiles and laughs :]

Quite the amazing 1 year and 2 months. You have a friend in me, I promise that.

Some closure for my wandering mind.

no limits included

Hokay so, college? It's pretty awesome, i like the feeling of being in a professional environment and there's so many people D: idk how long it'll take me to get to know everyone lol.

I need to keep of record of things around the world in this blog, idk one of my friends deleted or removed? (idk) her blog. D: So I don't think that anyone else other then her knows this exists ha.

Umm, i have 2 weeks. 2 Weeks to prove my dedication, i will not falter this time. I will need to work hard, and except that it will be no easy road, but when the time comes ill be ready :]

It's time to open up some new doors.

P.s. I love my new iTouch, its quite the smexy machine ;D

I think that a sheepy grin is just fascinating LOL.

Ooh and im gonna wear some nerd glasses which ill need to borrow from a nub for like a month or two? It's gonna be a blast har har

argh.

What's wrong with my head, I wish I could just forget all of this.

Maybe one day in the future 10 years from now, I'll look back and ponder at these moments.

I want school to start already, I seriously need a distraction. Something to take my mind off of things.

Summers end

So I'm going to write this post in remembrance of this summer ending for me. I start school next week, but fortunately my schedule will be rather light compared to others. So I will continue focusing on school a lots.

What can I say, this summer has been, well, gone a lot of directions I guess I could say. After my graduation, I knew things would change, but I never really imagined to this extent, but there's nothing that can be done from life changing, just let nature take it's course. I just have to learn to make everyday I'm alive count, because you never know how many days there can be left. There are just some lessons in life you can't learn from hearing, or seeing, you have to experience them first hand.

My heart is still heavy, and sometimes it still kind of hurts, but time will be my bandage.

I feel like i can do more in my life, and i should, i need to be more busy with new activities, hobbies, socially, economically, and much more. I want to start today, no, i will start today.

Back Home

So yesterday I came back from Canada, and it was a nice trip. I had the chance to see a lot of other places around this world. Although the return wasn't as short as I planned. Niagara Falls really is a nice place at any time of the day, the city around it is alive and buzzing 24/7, but I'm guessing this might only happen during the summer time.

I took more photos there then I ever took anywhere else. When I got home I unpacked, ate some food from the States, and caught up on what I missed. Some days just don't go as planned though, but I suppose those are just some things that happen in life.

I start school in a week or so, it's not gonna be much school on Tuesday or Thursday so I'm going to take up a part time job on those days including Saturday and Sunday.

Hopefully I'll be an ex tern soon, I've been wanting to be involved in this organization for a while, I guess I just never had the guts to follow through until now.

I took the trip to think about some things in life, and I think I made a pretty good outline of what to do on from here.

I'm going to follow through on my IT education, after 2 years of college I'll get into Mason and join either the Air Force or Navy, but most likely the Air Force. After that I'll get back to college and finish up and with my IT degree, hopefully get a job at Google, because I read that they have an outstanding job environment.

This is my last week before I start school, so I suppose I'll try to enjoy it.

brb, canada.

yesh i am going to canada for a few days, ill miss chau dearly :]

Happy 15th

Happy 15th month chauzy :] Im glad you like you're froggy snowglobe!

:]

I love you Chau. x<3

i gotta feeling

So where have i been lately might blog ask? well, everywhere and nowhere, eveywhere being around my thoughts, new places, stores, parks etc. And nowhere i guess would be just staying home.

I got a new phone recently and now i can text as well, i know i might be kind of an obsessive texter, but i think im just excited about it since i really never had a good phone or plan in forever. so im kinda eager about it.

The whole day the same song has been reoccurring, the new one by black eyed peas, the one that goes i've gotta feeling that tonights gonna be a goodnight, and believe me, tonight was a pretty good night. Especially with some delicious italian food made by chau with a desert or snow cone :D that pretty much tops any meal i could make.





And now, i gotta get some things off of my mind. I truly miss those times we've had, and i truly miss you. Tbh every night since that day, i have had at least 1 dream with you in it. I'll always be here for you.


Well it's really late, latest i've stayed up this 2 weeks, and my eyes are about to close shut, but before i go i think ill send just one more text har har.

musing moment

Where do i begin?

I feel like im on the edge of the planet.

27 hours ago would've been nice.

I guess today, it was just a day that millions of thoughts just kept going through my mind.

It's really hard right now. There are so many things that remind me of you. I tried to keep myself from crushing my mind with all these thoughts, I took a bike ride today. I went to the pond to a place where i thought i could clear my head. Yet i felt a presence, i even saw some ducks, and at that moment it brought it all back. Duck dialogues. Those summer days, i don't think i'll ever forget them. So, i continued my bike ride to clear my head, i arrived at loehmans. And yet again, thousands of memories came rushing back.

I guess what's on my mind right now, is that life has a way in making life, life. Over the course of time, there's been a lot happening, i'll miss this.

I don't know how to finish this post, so i'll just say, for now.

what just happened?

Reading from my last post, honestly, what just happened?

I feel so lost.

I'll always keep in mind our memories.

Have a good future chau.













Maybe someday.